If you don’t believe God can give us a prophetic dream today, this will really be hard to believe. In September 2000 God gave me a very vivid dream and in color. I thought it was really weird but gradually God also gave me the interpretation of it. The scripture which came with it was Hebrews 4:12 to back up what He would be doing in my life.
In the dream I got the impression that God was going to heal me physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. In a short time, He began the process with minor physical operations. I still have a few health problems but not as debilitating as the others were. I can live with them. In four more years The Holy Spirit has been dealing with my emotional, mental and spiritual. These He began to work on as I was ready for them, a little at a time.
In 2001 I got so lonely and I poured my heart out to God, asking for a good Christian man to marry. I thought it could be someone who could get me grounded in the truth. That was no reason to marry. God had other ideas.
Just three days later, I got a card from an old classmate reminding me of a luncheon coming up. Politely asked how I was doing and ended with “I need to be a blessing to someone today.” I told him about Mini-Sermons I had written back in 1987 & ’88. I didn’t want him to think I was stupid. I passed out 100 to 200 a week. I wrote these when I still was confused about so much.
I did the writing but only by inspiration of the Holy Spirit. He let me know which scriptures to use. I had read through the Bible several times so I knew what was in there. I just needed to be reminded when I needed it. Only time I was sure of what I was doing. It was the happiest time in my life for I knew I was in the complete will of God. Then until 2001 I had a dry spell. I had some more learning to do.
My class mate wrote back and was pleased about the sermons. After a few more letters back and forth by regular P.O. mail, I got a computer. The writing became more regular. I had a hard time learning it but with the Holy Spirit’s help and a lot of prayer, I learned enough to begin writing articles.
I knew I would never understand how to run a web site and God began to open doors for me. First I wrote some testimonies and became featured author on Club Praise.
That door was closed. The writings are still on there. Then I got on as leader/director of “Woman at the Well”. The owner of the site wasn’t well and had to close it down. Have a few items on other sites I have forgotten about.
At this point I have 80 articles so far www.onlinearchive.org under the name “truthreigns”. While I was doing all of this, I began to tell my email friend some of the bad things in my life. He never criticized or condemned me. This was all I ever got from my Dad and my husband. They also told me I was stupid and crazy along with others who agreed. I didn’t know anything but mental abuse. This new friend sympathized with me, prayed for those who hurt me and always pointed me to Jesus. He wouldn’t let me stay in self-pity. I knew I could trust him.
He wasn’t afraid to tell me when he thought I was getting off track. He became my accountability partner as well as a good friend. Although he lives in the south and I in the north, it seems that we have always known each other. That can only happen through the unity of faith. We become one in Christ. I hardly knew who he was. He was popular. I was voted the most backward. We weren’t in the same league.
Through his kindness and caring, I learned that God was a loving God and only chastised us to bring us closer to Him as His beloved child. This was a new concept for me.
In the Church I attended as a child, I thought God was sitting high in His throne above me just waiting for me to sin so He coud punish me. I grew up with a terrible guilt complex. I got to the point I took the blame for everything even when I didn't do it.
God has been using him to clear up my mind and help me dump all the garbage that was in it. Through him, God was healing my emotions. I have changed from an anti-social introvert to a happy and contented extrovert. I can smile and laugh easier now and enjoy life. I used to be such a sour puss. Only God can make that change.
God is using the two-edged sword to discern my thoughts and the intents of my heart. It hurts at times but can’t be healed unless it does. Hebrews 4:12 “For the Word of God is quick and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of souls and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”
God’s healing is going on continuously. Some of what He has done in my life is also on the archive. Now I know God had me in His hands all the time. He knew which way I would be going and what I would be doing. Nothing is hid from God.
I always wanted to be a writer since I was about 10. God gave me that talent and now He wants me to use it for His glory. My life is proof that God can change people when they are willing no matter how tangled up they were in the devil’s many webs. He wants me to write to warn people how to stay out of Satan’s traps. I’ve been there done that. So what I write is from personal experience. It’s up to them what they do with it.