Sometimes the Lord really has a way of opening our eyes. To make us really see how we missed Him when we were given a chance to do something for Him and the thing that I was given to do was a simple thing. To give someone a place to stay for a short period of time. I had plenty of room. The pastor asked if I would be willing to put this person up and how did I answer? By not answering at all.
By not saying anything, I said a lot. I missed an opportunity to help someone. Someone that I might have been able to encourage, exhort, lift up, to pray for. But what was I thinking? ďWell Lord, I donít know this person, do I want to leave them running around my house, I am going through enough battles, I donít need anyone elses problems. I was making all kinds of justification in my mind for not saying anything. I should have realized that my pastor, my friend would not have sent someone that He would have not felt safe with.
Here I was in the Pastorís office, myself needing help and my pastor, my friend said to me, ďLet me think about it, let me pray about itĒ and I was kind of shocked and then I was reminded , that when a brother was in need, a stranger needed help, I was not there. I was so caught up in my own battles I was fighting, that I missed an opportunity to be a servant, to have an open heart, to be there.
My pastor reminded me that He asked for help and my non-answer was an answer, that when others were asked, they did not hesitate to say yes.
Right then and there I realized what I had done. I had greived the heart of my Heavenly Father, of my Lord and Saviour and I also disappointed a friend, my pastor and the guilt cut to the inner most part of my being. I asked the Lord to forgive me. I asked my friend and pastor, for forgiveness also. The pain of want I had done went deep but the Grace of God and the forgiveness of my pastor went deeper. There was healing there and a lesson learned that I shall not soon forget! My Heavenly Father and my pastor both showned me the meaning of grace this day. I am thankful for the lesson learned and the love showed.
Let us keep our eyes open, our ears attuned so that we donít miss the opportunities that come our way to show the love, compassion and heart of the Father to others. That we not focus on ourselves but focus on the Lord and on those who are hurting and need to see the true meaning of the love of Christ.