I have never been as close to God as I am now. I never allowed myself to experience what it meant to be in relationship with him. I would go to church as a child, but only because my parents made me. It wasn't until later in my life that I began to understand who God really is. I've got to be totally honest here, when I used to hear about people who were saved I used to think they were some sort of religious fanatics, well if that's the case I guess I am one of those people now.
I title this piece "Walking With My Friend" because I feel that God came to me poersonally and touched my life in numerous ways. Yes, I have many hardships that I have overcome but as it says in the bible God never gives you more than you can handle. Sometimes I struggle with my Parkinson's disease, and other days I battle
the depression that comes from it. Through all of it though there has been one constant and that's God.
When I was a toddler I was in a group home in Mantoloking NJ, where I was subject to cruel and heinous abuses. I did not know at the time just how significant a role that would play in my adult years. It has caused me to have very low self esteem. I continuously find myself trying to keep my faith strong. God has been there to pull me up when I fall much like Jesus did for Peter when he got out of the boat and began to walk on water. I sometimes feel like there is no hope but I remember what happened on April 5th 1999, and rejoice in the fact that I have a Savior who loves me and gave his life for me.
That was the morning I became A Christian and Jesus entered my life. I was undergoing brain surgery for Parkinson's disease, and my life emotionally was in shambles. I was unhappily married, I had my job, but would lose that too, I was 26 and my body was betraying me. I wanted the suorgeon's to make a mistake so that I could end my life. As I was lying on the operating table I saw someone who hadn't been there before. He spoke in a calm voice "Come Walk With Me Friend for I will guide you". To this day those words have been etched in my heart. I thank God for coming to me and touching me in that special moment. God has given me many abilities that I just beginning to discover. I now have a Drama Ministry, and I am thinking of starting a bible study for people with disabilities and their caregivers. Had I not decided to walk with God, I would be missing out on the many good things like the love of my family and friends. Thank you God for never giving up on me. Without you nothing is possible. With you, all things are possible.
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