I have been experiencing a lot of trials this year.. Especially when, for the first time in my life, my car gets damaged by a hail storm. And today, not even a week before I take it in to get it repaired, my car gets hit by another car with me still in it. I don't know what possessed me to try to back out slowly, out of my parking space at work, while holding a bowl of bubbling hot chili in my lap, but I wanted to find a better parking space to eat, so my customers wouldn't see me stuffing my face as they walked into my workplace (that's not very professional). So, while I tried to back out slowly, this car comes flying and hits the side of my rear bumper, and I ended up getting a 1st degree burn on my neck, upper arm, chest and thighs when the bowl of hot chili spilled up everywhere.
When I got out of my car, jumping around from the burns I was experiencing from my lunch, the driver who hit me, got out of their car and asked me if I vomited because I was wearing chili from my neck down to the thighs of my pants. My skin was burning so bad, I didn't even think but automatically kept apologizing to him- for what, I really wasn't sure because I don't think my mind really processed what had just happened. But subconsciously, since I was always used to being made to feel like everything was my fault even when most things weren't, I just kept apologizing over and over and offered them my insurance information. They shook their heads and told me it was okay and got into their car and left when I asked them for their insurance information. And it wasn't until I gathered my thoughts later, that I realized they were at fault, which was the reason why they left and I didn't even think to get their license plate.
My manager came out after the driver left (since it happened in the parking lot where I worked) and she asked me if I vomited on myself. I told her I was wearing my lunch because of being hit by a car while it was sitting in my lap and we walked into my work, trying to figure out what to do next (call the police or call my insurance company). When my coworkers saw me, they were shocked because I was literally covered in chili, that some was even dripping from my hair and they asked me if I vomited on myself too. When I told them the same thing I told my manager, one of them burst out laughing and I just shrugged my shoulders.
The pain from the burns was lingering so bad, I went back into my car, sitting on the chili that covered the driver's seat and drove home to shower and change. I returned to work since I was working til close and my only worry was holding my coworkers back from leaving on time, that I just covered my car seat and waited to clean it later. After work, I spent an hour cleaning off all of the dried chili from the driver's seat. I didn't realize so much had gone onto the seat and it took me 3 buckets of water to try to take it all up. I honestly couldn't see whether or not the stains all came up because it was dark outside and the light from inside the car was too dim. And through it all, the only thing that kept me together was the thought of God's Spirit with me and I truly felt it's the only thing that makes me really happy.
My manager asked me today, how I was taking this all so well, because of the bad that occurred during my lunch break. The fact that I was still mentally, emotionally and spiritually altogether, made her perplexed because she knew other people would have reacted much very differently and most likely, fall apart or break down crying. I told her that it was because I was so used to trials causing me to stumble, I learned not to fall. Because even if I were to have fallen apart, it still wouldn't change my unfortunate situation and I just rather get through it without all the crying, the whining and the bitterness, especially when it's beyond my control to do anything else about it. I also told her that I'm so used to experiencing the bad, I already know good things is just around the corner, so really, there's nothing I have to be upset about because "with the bad comes the good", just like the way "with the good, comes the bad".
What I realized most of all from these experiences, is that when I finally learned not to let trials and tribulations rule over me, I got to experience the purpose for the Holy Spirit working in my life. He keeps these things from changing my heart and destroying whatever joy I have, because He knows I need it to survive mentally, spiritually and emotionally. This is my Testimony I return 'as thanks' to God for today. I thank Him for helping me get through another tribulation..
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW
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