Because of my troubles, I blamed God and turned from Him. Unlike Job, who remained faithful, I fell into a life of sin (rebellion).
Until one day, I was driving to work. I was on the highway doing the posted speed limit of 70 mph when I suddenly had the urge to speak to God; something I hadn’t done in quite a while except to scream at Him for all my problems.
I remember looking through the windshield up toward heaven and, out loud, I said; “God, what is wrong with me? What happened to my faith?
And, as though I had turned the radio on, in my mind, a voice loud and clear said; “If you will confess your sin, I am faithful and just and I will forgive your sins and cleanse you from all unrighteousness.”
I had not read my bible in at least two years but I knew that was scripture. And then I was reminded of another verse that says; “the Counselor, the Holy Spirit will remind you of everything I have said to you.”
I realized then, while driving along at 70 mph that God was speaking to me. And then I recalled another verse that says; “nothing can separate us from the love of God.”
I came to an immediate realization that God still loved me and all I had to do was confess my sin. As I began to confess all that I had done, I began to feel the guilt being lifted from me and I was reminded of what David said; “He lifted me out of the slimy pit; out of the mud and mire and set my feet on a rock.”
I began to cry at 70 mph. I was crying so hard by the time I came to my exit that I had to pull over. I could not see the road. God had kept His word. Right there, in my car, alongside the highway, He had lifted me from the slime and cleansed me.
Not long after that, this website was born. I had never attempted to build a website, nor did I hire anyone to build it; I simply asked God to help me if this is what He wanted. This website is His; I am merely the instrument He uses. I don’t post anything unless God tells me to. That is why it sometimes goes for weeks without anything added; then again sometimes, things get posted in quick succession.
Why am I posting this particular one today? Because God told me to do so. I had no intentions of posting anything today. There was nothing on my mind as I went to my corner, as I always do first thing in the morning, and began to read Gods word. I had picked up right where I had left off yesterday in Second Kings and I was reading about Elijah and Elisha when, suddenly, my mind was interrupted with these thoughts.
I can only assume that God wants you to see that He is a God of grace and forgiveness. And if you are having problems i.e. divorce, lost job, or whatever; and you are blaming God, you need to stop and listen.
God is not the one causing the problems. He may allow it in order to test your faith but He is not the cause of it. Look at Job; it’s the accuser, Satan, who is the cause of your trouble and God is allowing him to have his way with you in order to test you. Will you stand the test or will you fail it as I did? Let me tell you; my life grew ugly; so ugly I couldn’t look at myself in a mirror.
But God never left me. “The Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.” Nothing can separate us from the love of God; not even ourselves.
So keep in mind what Paul tells us in Romans 6:21-22 “What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death! But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life.” Amen