I've thought a lot about what I wanted to do in life. And one of the things I've been wanting to do for the last year and a half or so, was to get married and have kids. Throughout the last year, I've been praying to God on and off for Him to make this one specific person my husband, sometimes in a joking way, but at other times, seriously. I always used to picture that perfect guy in my head- tall, dark and handsome, whenever I ever got those feelings of wanting a loved one, growing up. And in my head, I actually thought if I ever became dead serious about marriage, God would bring a guy that is exactly as I had made him to be in my mind. And don't you know, almost a year ago, this man literally walked in through the front doors of my workplace, as if God had made him just for me! Obviously, I've lived long enough to know that coincidences happen all the time, otherwise, I probably would have took his handcuffs and cuffed us together, like an obsessive crazy woman, claiming him as my husband.
He was that one step up above Robert Downey Jr. guy I put together in my mind and it was as if God created and brought this man to life for me, just like the way those two boys created Kelly Lebrock's character in the movie, "Weird Science". It really gave me hope that maybe this was God's way of giving me His blessing to marry someone (maybe not necessarily this guy, even though I'm still hoping, but someone who is right for me). For a very long time, I truly believed I wasn't meant to marry. Because in the orphanage, when I used to have these hallucinations of angels sitting on the steps watching me work, they used to whisper among each other about me and it was about my future.
Of course I had no clue what a marriage was back then, nor did I understand the term "boyfriend". However, for some reason, I was able to understand what they basically said of me, which was, "She will never wed nor will she ever have children.." because apparently, that was the sacrifice they thought God was going to require of me because of Him teaching me so many wonderful things. But even among them, it didn't seem like God had it written in stone, for, some of them would go back and forth about it, not arguing but discussing it with each other as if it was some form of a gossip, because some of them believed God would allow it. I don't know why they said that about me and it always stayed with me in my subconsciousness.
Throughout the majority of my life, I was glad about the idea of not being permitted to marry but then, I began having second thoughts in the recent years and began hoping that the other few angels were right, about God letting me marry. And it was only because of this experience of struggling what to believe and what not to believe of what was said of me among the angels, that I finally came to understand what the angels were actually doing, when I remembered them whispering back then. They were not gossiping, they were deciding and they were trying to come to an agreement about my future. And though majority said "no" to marriage, those few who said "yes", was unyielding even though they were clearly outnumbered; and even though they were outnumbered, only God had the right to make the final decision if they could not come to a unified agreement.
People do not realize that every angel, who comes down to sit on the steps of the Stairway to Heaven to observe the people they watch, have a very powerful influence in helping God to determine each person's fate and destiny. In a somewhat comparison to the rich people in the movie "the Hunger Games", these angels are like the rich, who intervenes with prayers to God for those they favor the most, to help them. It is because of the silent audience the world is not aware of, that things that were once never possible in a person's life, becomes possible, because of THEIR Prayers.
I know that there are many people who have heard of the term, "the Power of Prayer".. But no one's prayer is more powerful than these beings that I got to see, sit on the steps when I was 6 years old. And even as a kid, I understood right away what the importance of this audience was.. Because it was they, that agreed in unity, that the remainder of my childhood should not be spent in the orphanage because of what they saw I was able to do. I knew I was going to leave many months before that day actually came because of those whispers. Whether or not I believed it, I became amazed when I saw it; when, without a warning or preparation, the nurses woke me up before dawn to dress me and took me to these two social workers, who explained to me the same day I left, why I was leaving the orphanage and that I should be excited to go and meet my new family (and the type of family they explained to me, about a mother and a father, was foreign to me because I didn't know what that was at the time; I only knew what a brother and a sister was).
And I also learned that the only way to keep the angels coming, is by entertaining them because truly, it is difficult NOT to keep those stairs empty of visitors. I learned quickly that they do not become entertained by rebellion or silliness or anything else, rather, showing how much I can learn from God through my faith- that's what kept them coming. And whenever I stopped working, that was when they would start to get up and leave and they would only return when I began putting my faith into practice again. The more I live, the more I understand life, including many mysteries of the past that, I struggled for a long time to understand. I thank God He's still with me and I hope I am still entertaining angels for the sake of their support to pray for me.
These events are true, and whether or not you believe it, really isn't my concern, but I share the secret of my success in hopes for everyone to have a better chance at life, just like I did, when great odds were against me. God knows it would be selfish of me to keep something like that to myself. I know for certain, that you don't have to search far for the Kingdom of Heaven if you possess the type of faith that entertains, because the Kingdom of Heaven will come to you. And when it comes, it will descend its stairs, so that the support you need will be there when you need it the most and I pray that these visitors that come down, will pray on your behalf so that you can see the changes in your fate that you've been hoping for. 'Those who hope in God will not be disappointed' (Isa 49:23). I'm living witness to that!
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