Until August of 2010, I would not have given my personal goals a single thought. I grew up as a victim of childhood sexual abuse and all that went with it, including depression, suicidal acts, and Bi-polar Syndrome, to name just a few. Last year, God brought me to a place of freedom from all the myriad negative relational, physical, and spiritual aspects of believing the lies of the past, and dealing with them on a day-to-day basis. Not until I achieved this freedom was it possible for me to see outside myself and to see the world around me. In this new-found freedom, Iíve gained a confidence that I had never felt before. God let me know that I mattered to Him and, therefore, let me know that I have something to show the world about how Jesus Christ can change a life of misery and sorrow into a life of joy, freedom, and confidence.
Here are my goals:
1. I will pray more in everything. I will establish a prayer time with God. I spend more time studying the Bible than I do praying for others and myself.
2. I will give up habits I still have from the past that keep me from all that God has for me. I still have lingering habits that I do not want to participate in anymore. I will work closer with the Spirit to eliminate these habits from my life by praying to Him before I give into the temptations.
3. I want to know God better for myself so that I may be able to better tell others about Him. I will memorize more scripture. I know what the Bible says, but I don't always know where the exact verse is to be found.
1. I want to reach out to my children and grandchildren more than I currently do. The abuse in my life kept me from bonding with my children. I will strive to become more of a presence in their lives by keeping in contact more often.
2. I want to be more patient with my wife. My Bi-polar sometimes doesn't leave me room to think about how to react to my wife. I will strive to put time between thought and action.
1. I want to reach as many people with the Gospel as God allows me. I want people to know about the healing power of Jesus Christ through multiple avenues: The Word, a book I am writing called "Faith, Hope & Love", my witness and testimony, and the articles I have been writing for the past seven months.
2. I want to help sexual abuse victims find freedom in Christ, as I have. Freedom from all addictions and illnesses are possible through Jesus Christ. If He could help me overcome the abuse I suffered, then there is hope for all others who are suffering through theirs, too.
3. The goals I set forth in this paper are achievable. But, only with God's help can I hope to see all of them accomplished. The impact of achieving these goals would mean a better life for me, my wife, my children, my grandchildren, and all who I meet, as they see Jesus in me, and what He has done to give me freedom from misery, worry, and depression.