Psalm 25:16, 17 (NIV) – “Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart have multiplied, free me from my anguish.”
There it is; there is the word I have been seeking for the last year, anguish. The dictionary defines anguish as excruciating or acute distress, pain, suffering, agony, or torture. Anguish is that constant, empty, tight, heaviness I have felt in my heart every day for the last year since my wife of 23 years left. Anguish is my frustrating inability to mend the heartache in the hearts of my daughters who endure their own anguish. Anguish is the anxious, worthless feeling that overwhelms me as I sit down to attempt to reconcile my bills every week. As a “writer” with an assumed mastery of the English language you would have thought that I would have discovered the word anguish months ago. This is definitely the word I have sought for so long; now I am able to name my emotions, and pain and it is called anguish.
There is nothing in this world that can remove anguish from a heart. We may try to dull or forget the excruciating pain through the use of drugs, alcohol, food, or sex, but none of these removes the anguish. There is no prescription a doctor can write to terminate anguish. Some of us attempt to remove anguish by looking inward, to “find our self” or seek answers in the stars, crystals, or through the inspiring words of some guru or teacher. There is, however, only one way to vanquish the anguish and I am so very thankful that I had this resource available from the very beginning of my torturous, pain filled journey; there is only the grace of God. It is only through the grace of my Father and His Son that I have been able to endure this anguish for this last year and now with the wisdom from this scripture I get on bended knee and pray for the removal of the anguish that has plagued my life for the last year. If you live with anguish won’t you please join me as I join David in this prayer?
“Turn to me (Father, Lord Jesus) and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart have multiplied, free me from this anguish. Amen”