I just celebrated my first Christmas. Never mind that I was thirty-one years old and had celebrated many Christmas seasons before. This year was a first for me. Spending it with my baby nephew Caleb changed my perspective completely.
Iíve pondered how small God made Himself in order to save us. I never knew just how small that truly was until I held Caleb for the first time in the hospital. Iíve never known just how helpless Jesus became as a baby until I watched Caleb need someone to hear his every plea. Iíve never thought about Jesus learning to explore the world He created until I watched Caleb study the amazing rug underneath him, fascinated by every fiber.
Iíve never imagined our Lord as a baby with a meal smeared from one ear to the otheróand loving every minute of it! Perhaps Heíd enjoy it if we let ourselves be messy once in a while, too! Iíve never known what it felt like to have a tired baby put his head on your heart, until Caleb. What must God feel when we are tired and do the same?
To look into his eyes, so bright and clear and full of joy and wonderóthe joy and wonder our Father wants us all to hold on to, even when life makes it hard.
And watching him learnóhe tried so hard to crawl, and his parents applauded his every effort. It is so easy to picture God frowning or looking disappointed when I try something new and fail. Or, when I keep failing a lesson Heís taught me so many times. But, thatís not what Calebís parents felt at all; they praised his every attempt. Could it be that God does the same for me?
And the joy that comes with holding him, when he is contented to let me hold him, is wondrous. Such peace comes with knowing he doesnít care about any of my shortcomings or failures, but just enjoys being held by meóand that he loves me because Iím me. What a beautiful picture of our Saviorís limitless and unconditional love!
God shared a deeper understanding of His most precious Gift with me this Christmas. I look forward to the Christmas when it will be my turn to share the story of His precious Gift with my nephew.