Started Monday, October 29, 2012 at about 11:20 PM
Today is the first day of the rest of my life. What will come in the following days? How many days will I have? I have no answers.
All I can control is the moment of time that is called “now”. I can control only the “now” that I have and no other time.
It is written that I should say, “If the Lord wills I will do this or that”. I cannot say that I will do this or I will do that. I cannot control the rest of the days of my life. I can think. I can imagine. I can plan but it is the Lord that will determine it. It all depends of what he wants of me and what he made me for. God supplied interests, talents, abilities and whatever gifts he has given or he will give to me. Remember, God is not finished with me yet.
I am digressing just a little bit but I wonder what would have happened if I would have desired being an elder several years ago when I was approached for being one. I don’t know. I don’t even know if I should really even be asking such a question of myself but it was in my mind. Just thinking about it, I would hope that Crossroads Church would be different than it turned out to be. But that is in the past and the past is not changed.
The future is what I live in and I must remind myself that I can only control the moment of time that is “now”. I can choose for this moment of time and not for a moment of time yesterday, last year, or 50 years ago. God does let me choose “the now” and each “now” he gives me. It is at this “now” that I choose to follow what God lays before me even though I do not know what decision each “now” will require of me to follow God. Thank you God for the peace you give in choosing to follow you in this “now”.
God, I open my spirit and my will and my mind to you to fill. I desire your Spirit to fill me and lead and guide me to follow your lead.
God, I don’t know what talents, abilities, interests you may have already provided for me except those that I seem to be already using or having an interest in. May your Spirit reveal them to me as you determine and may he gently open them up to me.
God, you have so completely given your written will that it is being continually revealed as your word is read and meditated upon. Teach me to meditate upon your word that I might understand more of your revealed will. I want to not only marvel at your word but use it as you would want me to use it.