This message is going to be about Change in Christ, what happens when we accept the Lord as our savior and the crazy things that happen to us. I will share my personal experiences and how I changed as well as the process it took.
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
May 3rd 2009 I found myself at a Park, sitting in my car holding a bottle of Advil wishing nothing more than to be dead. I took 15 of them and wondered into the park, I found a park bench and I sat down waiting and hoping the pills would kill me. I sat there mind blank, eyes staring out across this little pond and I remember getting impatient for death to take me. I broke down just prayed ďGod please kill me, I canít live this life anymore, the things I have been doing, and the people I hurt. Iíd rather be dead then to have to face my loved ones and explain what I have become.Ē I sat in this park for four hours waiting for the Advil to make my heart stop beating. I got a phone call to remind me of my friendís birthday bonfire. I got up walked to my car and took five more Advil and drove over to his house. Praying the whole time Iíd get in a accident, I was so scared and so depressed with my life. I went to the party and slept over at his house. The next day at 6am I get a call from my old roommate saying I need to get home, I drove thinking hmm wonder what could be happening. As I pulled into the driveway my parents pulled in right behind me, My heart sank as I saw them and the worry look on their faces. I had a choice to make, Either move to MN with them and get my life on track or stay in my garbage and be cut off. I moved back and three years later here I am.
Letís take a look at the change I faced after this happened. You see God did kill me that day, but he ultimately gave me life.
One thing people donít think about is how instant the process is when you break down ask for God to save you and accept Jesus Christ as your savior. In less than 24 hours I went from trying to kill myself to finding some hope. Now the beginning was instant but the battle was long, I spent an entire month struggling and battling with withdrawal. My vulgar speech hadnít changed; my mind set hadnít changed only a tiny part of my heart had changed. It was this small warm spot I now felt in my heart that I held onto through everything and it kept me alive like being in a frozen wasteland naked and trying to get warm from the flame of a lighter.
I could feel the new beginning to take form, I felt like I was back in the womb everything out of my control as God slowly pieced my new self together. Today a leg, tomorrow an arm, before I knew it I was a baby in Christ. I spent every day in the Word of God and in prayer; I began reading different books I had laying around. Constantly craving that relationship with God wanting to be close and hear his voice in my heart. Then I became a student I worked in ministry I grew in knowledge at an incredible rate but I was only a student I believed everything the teachers taught me. I began to learn more about Doctrine and Theology, I was beginning to see faults in different styles of preaching. I even began to question people in authority prosperity churches ect. I began to pray daily that he would open my eyes, my mind, and my heart to fully understand his truth. God began to work in my life in an incredible way I began to realize situations he would bring to me as missions from him. The people who I would talk to and have a relationship with had deeper meaning then just conversation and friendship. So many times I was able to sit down and help someone through a difficult time, bring them the Gospel, and other situations. Even in my own heart God was changing me on a daily basis, Anxiety and Stress were like my left and right hands constantly apart of me, and constantly trying to make me stumble. I would get stressed over everything that happened to me. One day I woke up and was doing devotions and it just clicked like God slapped me in my face He takes everything from me and provides everything I need. I went through a month of constantly trying to give everything to God and sometimes Iíd want to take them back and dwell on things. I came out of that month more mature than ever before, I began writing my thoughts in a note book, I began talking to people more and more about Doctrine and Theology. I would face a situation and give it to the Lord and within a week everything would work out for the best.
Now thatís how Change worked in my life, everyone is different and God works with us all differently. Some may have an instant change and growth, others might have been a Child when they were changed and didnít have to go through a long battle. The truth is everyone goes through some sort of Change in Christ, and even after God is constantly molding and working in us for change. As soon as you begin to get comfortable and you stop to settle down it seems like God topples your tent and says I have more for you than this.
Closing thoughts, A lot of you are reading this and thinking wow Josh sure went through a lot. Donít focus on my Change I challenge all of you to reflect on your lives and pick out the changes God has brought out upon your lives. Remember them and be thankful for them every day, for if God hadnít changed me that day I would surely be dead.
A message from Joshua Dykstra,
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