This is just another dusty town. He feels as if he eats dirt for every meal. It’s in his hair, his beard and it grinds between his teeth. Just another dusty town. When will the Teacher rise up and fulfill his destiny as the Son of David; the Root of Jesse? When will freedom from the Romans come? He has power! The true power that comes from Yahweh himself seems to flow through him. But he wastes it on these wretched beggars and prostitutes.
At the start, Judas had such high hopes. Here was this man who was clearly a prophet and great teacher. He could perform miraculous signs. Things more amazing than what even Moses had done. Jesus said come and Judas had followed with an eager heart. He had believed that he was the Messiah. That Jesus would bring God’s kingdom to earth. That Israel would once again be a free people, no longer under the thumb of the Romans or anyone else.
As the weeks passed into years, Judas began to doubt. Little by little his faith waned. Instead of raising an army in which Judas would be one of the chief officers, Jesus had drug him and the others all around the countryside and into cities for no good purpose that Judas could see. Well, that isn’t true. Jesus liked to preach and teach and he would heal and forgive sins. Judas wasn’t very comfortable with all of that to tell you the truth. The Pharisees were outraged when Jesus said he could forgive sins and Judas didn’t want to be on their bad side. Jesus would need them if he was to come into power. But to Judas’ mind, this was all just a waste of time. Yes the rabble loved him. But Jesus seemed to have no interest in raising an army. The one time the people tried to make him king, he would not allow it.
“How could he claim to be the Son, and not understand what he should do? Is he really the Messiah? Perhaps I was wrong.” All of this is very confusing. “The more I think of it, the more certain I should turn him over to the authorities.” Judas mutters. “If he is the Messiah, he will need their support to defeat the Romans. If he is not then he is a false prophet and must be punished. Yes, I will let them decide.” Perhaps I can even make a little coin out of this.
Jesus sadly looks over at Judas mumbling to himself. He knows what is in this lost disciple’s heart. Judas is frustrated and angry that things are not happening as he, and many others, had anticipated. Greed and rebellion have taken root and are growing into the tree he will eventually hang himself from. This is where it all begins.
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