Today hasnít been the greatest day of my life. Iíve felt more alone today then I have in a very long time. I feel like everything is on my shoulders and thereís no one I can lean on for support. I know my husband loves me, I know he cares about me and I know that he hates seeing me like this. But right now I just donít feel the support.
I woke up this morning and realized that while I have a family with my husband, I donít have my own family. I live not even five minutes away from my mom, brother and sister-in-law and yet I never get a phone call from my own family, I never see them and even when I send my mom a message on Facebook, I donít get a response. I feel ignored, unappreciated and unloved. I feel like my own family doesnít care about me and have no pride in the success that I have achieved in fighting my CRPS, finding an agent, and I have gotten no support from them in my search for the right publisher for my book.
Iím not trying to complain, I donít want anyone to feel sorry for me. Rather, I want you, my loyal readers to know that I can survive this too. Iíve already survived so much in my life that I can survive this too. And the most important lesson that Iím taking from this is that you choose your own family. You choose who youíre family is and who it is that is most important to you.