Itís what I wanted. Itís what I craved. In order to find love, I began to seek it in relationships. In my relationships I began to pour my heart and soul into them. Some gave it in return, but it was brief. One relationship turned to be verbally abusive. Another relationship that I was previously in I tried to get him to love me. He said he loved me, but in all honesty I knew in the end it was out of pity. Broken and downtrodden, I began to find love elsewhere, even to the point of giving my body to one nightstands. I was really desperate.
One day the Lord revealed to me that I shouldnít seek love from man. Manís love was conditional; itís fickle and always changes. He told me that His love was unconditional, He loves me a lot and no matter what I do, His love never changes. With that thought in mind, I gave my life back to God. I know now that I have Godís love and I now I feel free.