I woke up this past December 5th excited because my son was turning five. My son thought his birthday was only in the morning and didn’t realize he was going to be able to celebrate all day long. The thought process of a child is so precious.
I went to work that day looking forward to the evening a head. However, when I went to work that day, I heard the President of our college say, “as of today the college is officially closing.” These words echoed in my head over and over again. For some reason, I thought I would never lose my job. I always thought if I left the college it would be because of my own doing, not because of someone else’s doing. For a few days shock took over me. I was not able to function well because I was paralyzed by fear. I didn’t know what I was going to do. I remember crying out to God asking him to help me. I knew Good knew my needs and how important it was for me to have a job so I could support my two children.
I worked really hard filling out job applications. I even got a call from a University that I had wanted to work for. Once I got the interview I thought to myself, “this is it.” I thought God had finally answered most of my prayers. My children and I would be able to move and get a fresh start at life, they would be able to attend a Christian school for free and I would be able to quickly move up in the organization. I thought, finally all my hard work had paid off. Boy, was I wrong! God closed the door on that opportunity. I was crushed. I thought for sure this was the job God wanted for me.
I wept because I thought this job was going to be an answer to my prayer. I no longer wanted to work 5 jobs to support my children; I wanted more time with my children. I thought this job was going to give me those opportunities I had been praying for. I remember calling out to God, saying “Why?,” “Why?”, “Why?” But I did not hear God’s voice. He was silent.
Slowly but surely I picked myself back up and I started applying for more jobs. Again rejection after rejection letter or e-mail came. Even my family and friends began to ask me, “what is wrong with you? Why cannot you get another job?” I began to question not only my abilities but myself. I kept crying out to God, but I did not hear him speak to me. Finally, one day I called a friend and was venting about how I was feeling about God and the way life was going. There was a long pause after I finished weeping and she said to me, “Don’t you know God is with you?” I said, “I don’t hear him.” She simply said to me, “God is carrying you right now, he is holding you in his arms right now because he knows you feel like you are breaking and the whole world is on your shoulders. You are experiencing the Footprints in the Sand poem.” The moment my friend said this, a light bulb went off in my head. God had been holding me this whole time. I had to realize even though God had not opened the door for a job yet, He will in his timing. Until then I needed to feel safe in his arms because he would carry me.
Whenever we feel alone or that God is not hearing our prayers. May we remember that it is during this time, God is carrying us through the challenges of life.
Jesus said, I will be your God throughout your lifetime-until you hair is white with age. I mad you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you.” –Isaiah 46:4
Dear God, may be remember when things in life seem dark and dreary and we feel alone, you are right there holding us in your arms. Giving us the strength to hold on and face life challenges. May we always remember your promise that you care for us and only want the best for our lives. Thank you Lord for loving us so much-Amen.
1. What circumstance(s) in your life are getting in the way of you hearing God ‘s voice?
2. How does it make you feel to know that despite what you are going through, God is their holding you in his arms?
3. What can you do to ward of Satin’s negative thoughts in your life so you can more clearly see God?
Pretty good devotional. With a little attention to spelling and sentence structure, I think an article like this could be used in a devotional magazine or ezine. You're definitely on the right track. God bless and keep on writing!