In the last couple weeks I have been blessed with insight. Mostly, into my own potential, which is exhilarating! Often, I mistake the blessings for trials and the realization for frustration. There comes a point that you have to just stand back and watch God at work. You can neither say a word to change life, nor can you insert the perfect play, to win. You just sit back and say, “Go God!!” and wait.
With the understanding that my own child is out of control, came the better understanding that control is an illusion. With that, came laughter. The other day my best friend said to me, “I don’t know how you feel, but someone in the world knows exactly what your particular pain feels like.” I appreciated her honestly. After we hung up the phone, I sat and wondered where that person is. Where is the parent of the teenager doing the same exact things as my own? Gently, in a whisper, but with a smile behind the words, I heard, “I’m..right..here” And I was overcome with love and comfort. My God understands my pain. My God has felt my pain, and my God walks this walk with me.
My own daughter recently asked on her chosen method of (often inappropriate) means of communication, facebook, to ask, “Where are you God?” After hearing these words for so long, I saw it all perfectly, the answer to her question. Ever been on a baseball field? I have sat at home plate of Coors Field where the Colorado Rockies play and looked up. I noticed I could see bodies up in the “nose bleed” section, but no face. I couldn’t hear what they were saying, but I knew someone was up there. Where is God? He is up in the nose bleed section where you assigned him to sit. Ever sat in the nose bleed section? I have! And I was truly thrilled at how well I could see the entire field, the players and what a great sight the field was from there. The grass looks better, the players are all in view. Though smaller, I could see each individual one of them! God sits up in that far away section, where you put him. He can see you clearly, each and every one on his field, but when He’s up there in the nose bleed section and we look up from home plate, it’s a struggle to make out exactly where he is. He can only wait, not to be invited to sit behind home plate, but to join you on the field!
I know that my day will get better. My heart will be filled with joy, my spirit lifted, my eyes opened, my mind expanded. I know this because I am not alone. I am a student of the ultimate teacher, a loved and cherished daughter of the king. He does not leave me or forsake me. He knows exactly how I feel, and will share in this with me. He isn’t sitting in the most distant recesses of my life, He maintains his place deep within.. With this I can be sure. Never alone, we share in all of life, with our Jesus, our Savior..this alone should bring great peace.
New International Version (NIV)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Read more articles by Lisa Wenninger or search for articles on the same topic or others.