Some days you just have to talk to God. Sometimes things start bothering you, little things that never bother you most of the time. Today was one of those days for me. I had to ask God to forgive me this morning. Anger just seeped into my soul and I had to talk it out with God. It seemed there were others who resented my happiness and tried their level best to steal it. People who don’t know God. They gripe, they complain, they blame others.
So I just had myself a talk with Jesus this morning. At first I asked for patience, compassion and understanding. Then I just let go and vented. He listened, and when I was through He had a question for me.
“Have you never done the same? Have you never complained, and are you not blaming others right now? “ He gently scolded me.
That got me. I had to stop right there and admit I had, indeed, complained, and now I was blaming others. Then I asked myself where my own anger was coming from. Thoughts from resentments of the past had been nagging me all morning, and other people picked up on my anger and came back with their own.
All it took was a talk with my Savior to see where the fault was. It was with me. I was finding fault with other people’s behavior so I didn’t have to look at my own. If I have the true spirit of Christ within me, others cannot touch my soul and its happiness. Then Jesus said “How many times do you need to be told?”
“Apparently as many times as the child I am needs to hear it, Dear Lord.” I answered. That’s the beauty of if all. Jesus will tell us as many times as He has to, because He loves us more than anything in this world. He just wants us to stop blaming others for our unhappiness.
Lord, grant me the understanding of your word. Let me remember to have compassion and empathy for others, even if they treat me badly. When I have these feelings for others, they cannot touch my happiness. As long as I am living with your spirit in me, no one can touch my bliss.… If I let myself live outside of your Christ filled love, I can no longer live in peace. Others can’t take anything from me that is given to me by you. Hallelujah!