I could ask darkness to hide me and the light around me and the light around me become nightóbut even in the darkness I can not hide from you.
Psalm 139:11-12 (NLT)
Do you have a junk drawer? I know someone that has several junk drawers. When there is clutter all around and company is coming this person simply puts it into a junk drawer so no one can see it. They simply hide the clutter and mess from the outside world. Sometimes a lot of us do that in our lives we take the clutter and mess from our lives and hide it inside of us in our special junk drawer where no one else can see it. We look great on the outside and even tell everyone including God everything is great but inside the junk drawer is ready to burst. Arenít there times we just want to look good and not tell anyone what is going on inside because we are afraid. What is it we are afraid of? It almost doesnít matter; people are around we just go into survival mode clean ourselves up, dust ourselves off and swoosh everything else goes in the junk drawer.
Iíve had a junk drawer. What can we keep in junk drawers? Lies, secrets, shame, guilt, things we are doing we donít want anyone to know and stuff we have decided to take to the grave with us. The junk drawer has been full for a long time and we just keep stuffing it, it is overflowing it is ready to explode and so are we. God knows what is in that junk drawer and close friends know something is in there they just donít know what and they may be too polite to ask. We on the other hand are dying on the inside because what is in that drawer has turned into a cancer of unresolved issues.
God has told us to bring these burdens to him. God already knows we canít hide this drawer from him; he wants to help and provide help. There are very spiritually mature people out there who want to help you sort through that drawer. There is counseling available there is even Christian Counseling. There are Ministers, Pastors, Elders, family and good friends who want to help get rid of the stuff in that drawer that is just taking up space, taken over your life and causing pain that know one will ever find out, this drawer is effecting your entire life. Bring these burdens to God, find a way to get this drawer cleaned out, ask for help, because right now it is all tossed together causing pain and confusion. Sure we may look good but what is in you junk drawer? Do you need help cleaning it out? You donít only have to look good you can feel good.
As I smile, I write: I am sure that a lot of people will be able to relate to this process in their homes, certainly before the imminent arrival of expected guests. It is probably a lot easier to bury the 'junk' within ourselves, although we will ultimately feel the hurts. The question is: Which is worse; a house which is a bit untidy, or a body and mind which is suffering from neglectful recognition of soul destroying actions, hurts, abuse, memories etc? Visitors might see a dishevelled house, but if they have come to see you, they can get over it. I have learned not to be so house proud; it can deter you getting on with real life stuff. However, many people can't relate to others' problems - or their own. But God can. He sees all of our hidden 'junk', and if we choose to give it to Him, we can shut the drawer firmly, knowing that it is empty and can be put to better use.
I like your article, and the thoughts it provokes. I hope many people will be 'stirred' by it. :-)