In my world today, Jesus is the only thing that matters. Not so long ago, it wasn’t that way. My world was dark and dreary and cold, but no more. I have been in places in my mind I wouldn’t wish on anyone, but today my mind is sharp, clear and focused on the One who pulled me out of that spiraling vortex and gave me a life beyond my wildest expectations.
My world today is full of wonder, excitement and dreams for the future, and though I am now sixty one years old, I feel younger than I did when I was forty. I wake up in the morning with thoughts of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ on my mind. I think of the miracles he has performed in my life and still have to pinch myself sometimes because I surely must be dreaming.
Not so long ago I hid from the world and others. I didn’t want to see people and couldn’t bear to talk to them because I just knew they could see straight through me. I was riddled with guilt from the past, felt the sin in me rising to the surface.
Now I love people, love to see them because I know they can see Jesus in me now. I have a light in me and they respond to it. I never knew I had a sense of humor, could make others laugh and smile. I didn’t know for sure if I even had a good heart or not. I do, I really do. I care about others first, and no longer focus on self. That is a great feeling, to care about others.
Until I found Jesus, the only people I think I really was able to love was my son and my grand daughters. I loved them fiercely, but most others were looked at with jaded eyes. I took everyone’s moral inventory all the time. Now I am too busy taking my own and can see other people through different eyes. The eyes Jesus gave me when he saved my life.
I recently started writing again, after forty odd years and it is sometimes hard to do because a brain tumor left me somewhat slow in my thinking, but I remember the words of a little mentally challenged boy who had recently given his life to Jesus.
“I didn’t have a very good mind,” he said. “So Jesus gave me His.”
There you go.
I will never write a best seller I’m sure, but I will write about the miracle of Jesus. I want everyone I who reads my writings to know how healing Jesus is, and how they too can live in His light and leave that world of darkness and pain behind.