My heart remains the relative degree of my body
The remnant of a cause once mine
The mind of a one-time consideration thought to be no more
The sun sets and chaos reigns again
As if a momentary reprise blurred into constancy
I feel compassion release me
All that is left of me I have forgotten
All that remains is the residual of that which has been lost
Spirit of sinister augmentation leave me be
This image in the mirror I do not recognize
How is it then that I know the darkness so well?
Without a name I call out but my voice remains still
Only the echo of a distant cry returns to me in the drops of pain I exude
The torrid rain of my eyes that mocks my countenance
I have ceased to exist
Time to leave now
For reason can no longer explain that which lacks to define me
I slowly walk away from my being
Not being able to suffer my own awareness
Identity has become a myth
I do not recognize my own face
No one remembers my name
Yet suddenly
Just before I intimate the door of permanence
As surely as I thought I knew
Knowing is called to doubt
I am sure that I know my own name
As surely as I am that I hear it now
I distinguish what my ears cannot
Acknowledging it without words
“Here I am”
Uttering without restrain
“ I am here”
I once again exclaim
As clear as the day and as unavoidable as the night
Does my mind betray me?
Certainly my ears have failed me
“ I cannot wait here, I must go”
I blurt without control
+“But it is I that have been waiting for you”
+“And it is only I that can tell you where to go”
Should it matter that me eyes see nothing?
It must be the darkness that grips me once again
This is not the doing of a friend
+“No child, you have yet to meet the daylight. That is why I Am here”
So my mind deceives me further, now the river speaks so clear
I have experienced what most will never see
This tops them all, yet I feel no fear
+“That is because I Am here to give you love, and perfect love drives out all fear”
Only my own thoughts could answer a question I have yet to state
+“Ah, but I know you deeper than spoken word, before your parents mate”
“How is it that I feel I know you, for I am not familiar with your voice?”
+“Yes I know. I have been calling you, but you were not ready to answer”
“How do you know me?”
+“ There can be no one who knows you as I do. You have searched for yourself for so long, and I Am here to answer your question”
I don’t remember asking any questions
+“That is what makes them mine alone to answer”
Everything I have learned tells me this should be but me alone
How is this more true to me than anything I have yet known?
+“That is because I Am the Way and the Truth”
+“What has been foreign to you until now will be told to you in Today”
+“The Son has risen and now you must feast your eyes upon that which will satisfy your hunger and rinse your mind in that which will quench your thirst”
“Odd. That made sense to me, yet I know not of what you speak”
+“I will give you today the water of discernment so that you may know all things concerning me, the Living Word.”
+“How Today I wash you clean, and how it is the Son has risen in your heart, bringing the beginning of a new morning where the day will never end”
Just then, the most gentle of breezes caught me splendidly off-guard
Yet it did not pass as all others have, remaining as I now knew He would
From underneath and all sides of me, as a mother reaching for her newborn, it stayed with me as it lifted my heart in the security of forever arms
May I ask you something my Lord?
+“Please do”, He gently said as I heard my name though it did not leave His lips
"I have never known anything like this, so how is it that I recognize this more intimately than those I have spent my life appealing to?"
+“Today, I will tell you who you are. The one question whose answer has eluded you”
+“You have only appeared to yourself without knowing, for your image was merely a shadow of the One who has made you”
+“Today, I complete you”
+“In life, through love, in all That I Am, do make you alive to never die, by the rising of the Son, to be my son forever more”
From that day on, I have known life, and I have lived
No matter what else this world may reflect of me
For the good and the bad, the gain and the loss
I now know what it is to be free
And for this
Never again to reminisce
What is now there be no render of
Forever and for sure
I now know Love
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