I Was all alone in my study room, uninterrupted, there was no music nor book opened neither the computer was on. The mind was just clear I dint mind the schedule the job or anything. Relaxed with eyes closed far in my mindís eye, I saw myself going somewhere ,to a funeral of a beloved one I had already experienced this before but this was very much different I pictured me approaching the home, the flowers and the organic soft music, approaching the graveside I saw faces of friends and family members as I passed along and felt the shared sorrow of loosing, the joy of having known, that radiated from the hearts of everyone over there, as I walked down to the view point and in front of the crowd, I took a glimpse in the casket, and suddenly came face to face with a gentleman laying gently and relaxed in a black tuxedo suit .and that was me. in fact that was my funeral,78 years from now and all this people had come to honor me , in a shinning expensive casket, which was used to express feelings of love and appreciation for my life
Took the seat and waited for the service to begin, the program was on my hand. four speakers first from the family, immediate and extended family, brothers ,sisters, nephews, nieces, aunts, uncles, cousins and the grandparents, second was scheduled to be one of my friends. I mean a good friend. Who could give a sense of who I was as a person. Third was from my work, colleagues and forth from the church where I used to have a covenant with my God.
Before a drop of the first tear, I thought deeply and asked myself, what will the speakers say? What kind of a husband a father, wife or a mother have I been? Will the words reflect or will it be a matter of lies? What kind of a son, daughter, cousin, what character have they seen in me, what contributions and support, what achievements would they remember, will my kids be great that I raised them in God?
And finally I looked carefully at the people around me, what difference have I really made to them, in their lives as a friend, a colleague and the community in general, then to the church. Did I served the call and responded when it was the right time? Because during the days I believed that everyone had a task to accomplish here on earth, and since itís quit hard, was it successful? I realized a second tear splash on the beautiful picture published on the program, in one of my favorite suitís .I dint mind, because I knew I lived right, watched many live my legacy, many were inspired by my books and articles, as a fisher of men I had thousands, children filled a classroom I watched the community celebrate project s which I introduced seeking sponsors, I never had a debt which could cause my entire family trouble ,as for me and house, we served the lord .as I laid there, I was an hero, Gods sent having accomplished and died the right time and in peace..To this day I never knew if that was kind of a day mare, if thatís it, it a clear indication of a death at the age of 108 years having accomplished that? Thatís great. Or was kind of vision? Have no idea
My reads this experience of the end in mind can change lives, many of us have abandoned our responsibilities as children, fathers, mothers, colleagues, friends, little did we know that itís our responsibility. Response - ability, we bare the ability to respond. We cannot live on ignoring the fact of the world and the universe. We are not gonna be intimidated or threatened neither shall we be influenced. Letís all stand, meet or responsibilities, God needs us, our families needs, our children also do. Church and the community, the world needs us, as well as the people, we all have something unique and amazing we live to share
An experience with the movie Courageous. Only God knows. Policemen (the Sherriff), local men give their lives to Jesus; through a man of God. Circumstances, mistakes. Men meet their responsibilities as husbands and fathers after an experience of what happens when one fail to appreciate and take care of what they have. A rank as a favor, a child as a gift, as well as a nice family can all be lost. We often donít treasure and appreciate what we have until we lost it. A young girl always wanted to dance with her beloved father but Sherriff had no time for that, or maybe he was ashamed to dance with his 8 years daughter. He never knew, until she died,
Nathan couldnít let go his son in the back seat when a nigga tries to rob his car at the petrol station, he stands along with his daughter and his family by the glory, Their friend is being raised from his honesty and integrity, itís an honor to be a man of God but this movie is for men only, every time I watch this movie am on tears when the guys go through the resolution. Itís quite amazing, men give up their lives, you cannot be a loving, caring gentle man until you give up your life to GOD, trust me otherwise you remain to be a rich always drunk fool sailing in a dhow in the middle of the darkness. All men should watch this, look life from a certain angle, think from a different perspective, knowing the truth and because circumstances never end, we got to have the power and ability from God to handle our responsibilities respectively if in God we trust.
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