“Jesus answered, It was not that this man or his parents sinned, but he was born blind in order that the workings of God should be manifested in him.” John 9:3
We are all different, crafted by the hands of God. He is the potter and we are his clay; we are also a unique piece of clay, before it is even touched.
I am Autistic, high-functioning (Aspergers), with Attention Deficit Disorder. Meaning, I struggle big time understanding the world around me and others, having social rules and demands in communication quite different, often misunderstood. On top of that, the nerve filtering information in my brain is missing, resulting in what seems like low attention spans; when in fact I simply get distracted by everything or can't sort out the information given. Sometimes, we all have “bad hair days”. But for an Aspie or an ADDer (in my case, both!), life can feel like an ongoing battle that doesn’t leave much rest. “Good days” socially, can feel sometimes like extremely rare. Yet I am fighting every day, to grab those “good days”; and they are now happening, more and more often.
Because I am sure of one thing: God loves me, made me as I am for a specific reason; His Glory. And it is the same, for you. Remember, that he knew you before you were even born, the qualities and faults you have, the choices you face and your potential to reach out to others for Him, with his love and mercy. You are his precious jewel, that He polishes everyday, so that He may show himself to others through you, his instrument. We are all sinners, that’s true. But we are also all special to God in some ways, no matter what we do. As Jesus says in this passage: it is not sin that makes us who we are. It is God, who doesn’t need you, but wants you to be a part of his family, a beautiful mosaic with different colors and shapes, useful for different things: and all for God’s glory. God will never give up on you, because he wants you to manifest his workings.
Sometimes you may look at another and mutter: “why can’t I do this like he or she does?”, “why don’t I have what he or she has?”… Beware, for by doing so, you forget about what you do have: your own style of doing things, living things, that God gave to you only; a style that others, perhaps, may feel jealous too about, wanting what you have. Here’s my advice: look up to others, but also cherish yourself. Because if God thought you had nothing to offer to this world, you wouldn’t be born. Seek Him and ask, about what you can do, where you shine. And happiness will be given to you.
Prayer: “Lord, speak to me. Show me how I can let you manifest yourself in this world, through me, for your Glory. Help me find out about my future, where I shine; and keep me from feeling jealous towards others who may seem better than me. I know you love me and made as I am, because I am special in your eyes. Help me feel special about myself, so that I accept myself as I am. In Jesus’ name, amen”.