As I walk before your throne, I feel your presence overwhelming me causing me to fall on my knees. I cry Holy are you my Lord! With tears streaming down my face. Never before has a person affected my emotions so much.
But you did.
As Iím bowed down before Him, I feel a touch on my shoulder. Looking up, I see Him in all of His Glory. Fear gripped my heart, but I watched in awe as He grabbed my hand and helped me to stand on my feet.
Suddenly, He spoke and I felt my stomach turn in knots. Sensing this, He put His hand on my shoulder. At that moment, I felt an overwhelming calm. If I could I would have drifted off, but I couldnít. Who would want to fall asleep in front of the Holies of Holies!
I felt Jesusí eyes on me. I wanted to say something, but I couldnít find the right words to say. My thoughts were screaming at me. ďSay Something! Now is your moment! But still the words wouldnít come.
Jesus cupped my face and said, ďDonít be afraid.Ē
Looking up into His beautiful face, I replied, ďThank you for forgiving me, even when I turned my back on you. Iím sorry for hurting you and everything that Iíve done. I realize now that Iíve had love all this time when I was looking for and craving love. Youíve been good to me and I donít deserve it. I just have one request:
Please donít leave me. I need you now more than ever. I just donít know what I would do without you!Ē
Jesus remained calm, but I can see a single tear in the corner of His eye. He looked at me and said, Child, I will never leave you nor forsake you. ď
Hearing this made me cry even more. I felt Jesus arms wrap around me and I fell into His embrace. This is exactly what I needed to hear! Now I can live in peace knowing that He wonít leave me that He is always by my side. And that caused me to love him even more.