when I'm not really looking,
I catch myself thinking of the Past.
Depending on the setting,
I may laugh.
Sometimes at you,sometimes at me,
It brings me relief to mock It.
Our past, our story. Our relationship-
A well rehearsed chess match
Two hearts,two lives but with one goal.
To have needs met,it was a powerful exchange.
But love contracts which stray
From God's heart
Falter,wither and die.
With death came life
I found the true Christ
Sometimes, I long for you.
If i could just
Get back some of the feeling i've lost
Of all things our love wasn't
It was nothing short of
P is for the pain and pleasure of knowing you
A is for the advanced state of my fear of repeating the past
S is for the secretive nature of us,
T is for the torrent of emotions I felt when I had to say goodbye.
But more and more
As the winter grasses turn green again
And spring announces its welcome presence
I can call myself my own again.
Sometimes,it's almost worth it
To remember the pain
So I can embrace my freedom
From ties and breaks and rips and fears.
I am who I am,
Living with repercussions
But also budding and blooming with life.
Look into my eyes.
One day,you will see no more regrets there.
Once-I let you own me
It's so unnatural for it to come to nothing
But maybe my soul was called
To something deeper.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW
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