Letters From the Fire8
ď. . . and my God has become my strength.Ē
I never thought that being dependent on God would translate into God becoming my strength. I have learned to be dependent on him in my work with clients, and I have seen many miracles. I have learned to work the works of God in such a way that I am able to get myself out of the way, so he has the freedom to do what he wants to do. I always saw this as dependence rather than strength. I have to work with doctoral students at my job and they are often a challenge because of the large egos involved. It is easy for me to be intimidated and to make the logical assumption that since they are receiving more training than me they have more knowledge, and are therefore more effective. But my success rate with clients is unbelievably high because of him. Knowledge doesnít seem
to matter so much in Godís economy. In fact, my own foibles or anything about me doesnít seem to hinder God either. Yet, how is this strength? I feel like Iíve been kind of standing on one foot, not sure if I can put my full weight down on what I believe until now. God has somehow become my strength. There is a difference between leaning and standing. Between tentatively stepping out and putting your full weight on something. To be willing to risk becoming an odd ball and take a road no one else is taking because you see God there. My confidence doesnít have to be shaken by doctoral students. I donít have to be swayed by other peopleís opinions or their degrees when God is telling me to work with a client a certain way. I can stand alone if need be and Iíll be fine if Iím following him. Itís actually liberating to be free from the gravitational pull of this world in order to work the works of God. The surprising thing is that as God becomes your strength, you shine all the more brighter in the darkness.