Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear unto my cry; hold not thy peace at my tears; for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were. Psalm 39:12
About a week before I discovered that I had a cancerous tumor, I had a disturbing dream. In the dream there was a demon like creature hiding under my bed. I got up in the dream with a flashlight and was shining the light under my bed. The creature cringed and hissed at me for discovering its hiding place. It did not want to come out. Afterward, I woke up shaken and afraid that something terrible was about to happen.
A few days later in the bathroom I was looking in the mirror when I heard the Lord’s voice behind me say, “Do you not trust me for the timing of your next child?” I became pregnant shortly after and that is when I noticed some irregular bleeding. I promptly went to my doctor.
Upon examining me, the doctor startled me with the detection of what appeared to be some sort of lesion on my cervix. He recommended that I get a biopsy right away. The next day I got an urgent call from the hospital. The lesion was in fact a malignant tumor. As my husband and I arrived at the hospital, I felt as if I was completely out of my body. It was surreal. I could not believe this was happening to me. I was in a daze. All I remember was the tormenting fear that was now setting in.
In those first few hours after the diagnosis of cervical cancer, I was broken and frightened, crying out to the Lord to have mercy on me. That night I held my Bible very close and slept with it by my side. I felt as if the living Word was now sustaining me through this traumatic ordeal. I kept hearing the voice of the Lord saying to me, “You shall live and not die.”
Later, I remember being taken away on the stretcher into surgery. I knew then I had to rely on God to see me through. The next thing I remember was waking up and hearing my husband say, “I have good news; the cancer did not spread and they found no baby.”
After the surgery to remove my uterus, the doctor came out scratching his head saying, “We don’t understand this, but we found no embryo, only a placenta.” It was as if the embryo had just miraculously disappeared. The pregnancy brought on growth hormones that caused the hidden tumor that was growing inside the cervix to surface and be detected early. I was stunned because only three short months earlier I was given a clean bill of health with a normal pap smear. How could this be?
Since then, I have rebuked the cancer and commanded it never to return and I am confident that it never will. By His stripes I am healed. I would encourage anyone going through a life threatening illness or injury, believe in the Lord. He is able to rescue you.
One evening as I was relaxing and reading the Bible shortly after my cancer ordeal, the Lord spoke to me through Psalm 91:14-16 which reads, “Because he cleaves to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. When he calls to me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will rescue him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him, and show him my salvation.”