I would thank God daily rather than only when he blessed me but when the bad times came instead of the many pity parties I had. I would be leaping, shouting and praising his holy name. Jesus!!!!
I would show more love toward God by not only fellowshipping with church folk but I would beat the streets down visiting the sick and shut in and going to the prisons telling people about a man that committed no sin but was accused of sin. He was hung on a cross and died so that ours sins could be washed away. That man is Jesus Christ.
I would smile and laugh more instead of people always seeing me frowning, complaining and blaming others for everything that I felt went wrong in my life.
I would welcome new changes in my life when it was clear as a bell that the old ways I was using were hurting me.
I would delete certain words from my vocabulary like “can’t,” “what if”, and “I don’t know” these words only heighten negativity that I didn’t need.
I would talk less and listen more instead of trying to defend my every thought when conversations were present with others.
I would have never used recreational drugs as quick fixes for the many challenges I faced.
I would have always followed my first insist which never would have lead down many dark paths.
I would have loved my mother more in spite of resenting her for drinking alcohol most of my life.
I would demand respect from others instead of allowing verbal and physical abuse to take my self esteem away.
I would have been able to love and nature my baby girl(now a 19year old women with a daughter of her own) instead of resorting to emotional abusing her with my words, spanking her a little too much and never really giving her enough of me; because I was always caught with the wrong things and people.
If given another chance. I would “Love” myself first and foremost in spite of the many obstacles I had to endure. I know that I would be a healthier and happier person toward others and my life would gleam with joy and peace.