Hi God, well here I am again. Once more I’ve lost my way. Every time I think I have found my way through this desert, the mirages of my mind appear and draw me to them. I get lost in their fantasy and forget who I am. Each one a secret sin. Father, why must I be so weak? Why must I stumble away from decency? I hide so people cannot see me, but I know I can’t hide from you.1 Deliver me Father with new strength and new focus.
Praise to You Father; bless Your holy name. Your angels are always there to catch me; they would not even let me bash my toe.2 You will not run off or turn your back on me. 3
I stand in awe, speechless, with wonderment. How do You have time for this speck of sand? You listen and give. I love You. All my life I’ve looked for an escape from sin. I looked for help here and there. I look for help everywhere. When I gave up I found You, standing here smiling, arms wide open. Never once have You turned away. Never once have You shaken Your head. You have loved me and cared
For me with agape love. All that I ask for and all that I am You give so freely to me.
When I fall flat on my face, You are here to dry my tears and kiss my wounds. Your forgiveness is everlasting.4 You Understand.
You have created me with purpose holding my name
In Your hand.5 Now I know I’ve gone on with my gibberish. I hope You understand. All that I am, was, and will be I have delivered up to You. I delight in You Lord knowing You give me the desires of my heart.6 Take my sins for they are many. Let your will, not mine, be done.7
I love You. See You tomorrow.
Paraphrased:
1. Psalm 139:12
2. Psalm 91:11-12; Luke 4:11
3. Hebrew 13:5
4. Psalm 136:1
5. Isaiah 49:16
6. Psalm 37:4
7. Luke 22:42
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