Oh my God! Who is going to get my pictures! My stomach feels sick as the realization sets in... there's no one to take my photos when I die.
I had to come sit down here at my computer and write this out... I can't just talk about it... verbally. I can only write what I feel at this moment.
I was in the bathroom looking in my mirror. Today... my mirror 'sort of likes me'. I'll explain... I feel alot like my old self today, my eyes have some sparkle in them, my hair 'sort of' looks half-way decent, my clothes look 'happy'.
I know I sound probably 'silly' to you... that's okay. I know what I mean... today, I've been sad off and on, but... I could look in my mirror that has judged me as 'just a mess' for so long... today, I could just 'see me'.... just a little bit... and I smiled back at 'me'!!!
Wow! You can't imagine what a nice feeling that was. I took my camera phone from its case and decided to capture this 'big' moment!
I took several photos when all of a sudden... I thought of Tommy... then, a question popped up in my mind, my stomach felt sick all of a sudden.
Who will get photos of me if I die? Tommy was supposed to get all of my photos. He isn't here to get them anymore, he isn't here to get those things I always meant for him.
I don't have other children.. Tommy was my only child. I have things I always meant for ... Tommy.
His children are kept from me, bonds have been broken. How hurt Tommy would be if he knew. I'm old enough to know life is like that.. and I'm strong enough to go on... it still hurts.
I'm still left sitting here with the question... who is going to get my photos when I die?
Skip will, that's who. I'm missing Tommy very much today... the feeling in my stomach is subsiding just a little now..... isn't it strange how things like that happen?
I hadn't thought of this.. until now.
:))) Everything will be alright... thank-you for listening.
Does it really matter who gets your photos? The photos in the mind of those we love will always be there. I understand the question until the Lord showed me "it really does not matter who gets them"...just a note to share...I was told as a child of an aunt of mine that died very young 20 yrs before I was born and thru the internet and ancestry search a picture was found of her and I know when I get to heaven she will be there to greet me....how is that for the way God does things....OUR GOD IS SO GOOD!!!