"Must go through the valley, to stand upon the Mountain of God"- A line from a song by Third Day "Mountain of God
When I started my walk with the Lord I was 12 years old. Everyone else was filled with the Holy Ghost before I was. I guess I was to “boy crazy” to really focus on what it meant to be saved. But that revival I really heard for the 1st real time what the preacher was trying to tell me. I gave up and gave in to God and I was filled with the Holy Ghost. I was in School and going to school in this world full of sinners its hard for anyone to keep on track. So like many I fell off my track here and there. But I got back on track when I realized my mistakes. Sometimes it was an obligation to even go to church because the flesh doesn’t want it. It likes what the world has to offer. Though the road gets rough we got to keep moving on.
I made my 1st real mistake when I thought to give in to pure pressure and try smoking. I thought it would help me fit in better with my peers and therefore I tried it. I cant say that in my case I became addicted or anything, but it was the point here I gave in to try what the world wanted me to. I regret it. It distanced my walk at that time that I could have had with the Lord. I repented and turned from those sins. And As I grew a little older I found more things that seemed to fit to try at the time.
The 2nd mistake I made was when I was 18 years old I had been in an on and off again relationship with a boyfriend I had since I was 15. At 18 years I knew that I wanted to wait until I was married to marital relations with anyone. I thought that I would do it right and marry someone and that my 1st time having sex would be on my wedding night. However the devil had other plans. The relationship was complicated and while I felt at the time that I was in love I wasn’t sure that I could keep this guy in my life without giving into the temptations of sex. Therefore I had consensual intercourse with him and sure enough much to my surprise at the time it got me no where. The guy left me anyway and the worse part was 2 months later he called me drunk and told me he never loved me and that I was a mistake. Its one thing to feel like you gave away your virginity to someone who you thought at least cared about you. He knew my wishes of wanting to wait until marriage and if he really loved or cared for me he would have respected it. But the deed was done and it was time to move on. But that wasn’t easy I had drifted so far from the Lord I found myself drinking and smoking all over again. I blamed it all on the heartbreak but truthfully I was always in control of my actions. I should have ran to the alter and repented. I shouldn’t have drank and smoked. God is the healer of all including heartache.
Over my lifetime I wish I could say that these 2 mistakes where the only ones I have made, but they are not. I am human and like Peter said “I die daily.” Everyday I show I am human. I make mistakes and I repent and try my best to turn from them. By the grace of God I am saved. I thank him daily that he loved me so much that I wasn’t to suffer the punishment of any sins I have committed which would have been death. Jesus was the one and only perfect spotless lamb to walk the earth and its through his sacrifice he didn’t have to do that I am able to make Heaven my home.
It was at my lowest times and through the trials that I was so far down I couldn’t see the base of the mountain. But through the trials I have grown stronger and climbed my way little by little. Getting more stronger along the way that I today can see the peak of the mountain. I still fall along my way but through faith God helps me back up. I will continue to climb and get stronger. I will stand on the Mountain. I will get through this trial. Will you?
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