My wife decided that it would be in the best interest of our family to move out of state due to some personal issues that we had been having. I was shocked and dismayed but had no intentions of following her. I'd been working very hard at developing a list of local contacts in my field over a period of several years and wasn't about to give them up. Plus the kids were doing so well. I had taken her to court in order to "show cause" why the children should leave state with her. I had no problem with her rejection of me but to take the kids to another state? I wasn't going to allow that without a fight. She was granted permission,(NYS).
The following is a poem that I wrote, two days before her departure with the children. I had gotten my wires crossed, (just a little" stressed out) and was sitting there in my truck staring at an empty field.
I had never missed a game.
I thought there was a game tonight but it's just an empty field, is this what life will soon be like, will I bend, and yield?
Will I be forced to absorb the pain and hurt I'm sure to feel, if their mother walks away...will my heart ever begin to heal?
No more cheering for the team, or hearing about their silly dreams. No more sending them off to school with reminders of the Golden Rule.
No more kissing them goodnight and praying to God with all my might, that He'd make us stronger for the fight...nothing but memories. Daddy loves you, I guess that will have to do.
I will always be a part of your life. I will be interested in what interests you. I'll still ask lots of questions and want to know where you go and who your friends are. I'll pray every day, that your faith will grow and mature and I'll be faithful in meeting your needs, and if the time comes, that your mother and I can "get it together", I look forward to that day but if it doesn't happen, I will still be your Dad...count on it!
God is faithful to care for those who put their trust in Him.
Her bags were packed, the moving truck, backed up to our little townhouse, half loaded.
My daughter had "sided" with her, my little boy was just "following mom" but my oldest boy, my namesake, was not into it at all. He wanted to stay...it was a mess.
His little league team played their last game (all-stars) and all their friends had thrown them a going away party. To the natural mind, all had been lost. I was going to be picking up the boys trophies the next day because they weren't going to be there.
During this whole ordeal I had continued praying with them and doing our a.m. bible studies before putting them on the bus.
Suddenly she did a major 360' and "changed her mind". What? Everything was set! She had emptied what little bit she had in her 401k, paid the lawyer, put first and last months deposit down at her new place, I mean everything was set. She was GOING.
Afterwards she revealed to me that God had been at work in her heart. She said that she felt like she was literally outside of her body watching this whole thing happen and was suddenly struck with the thought, "What am I doing?" It had been like she was under a spell of some kind.
Needless to say, we did manage to work things out and were even able to finally secure a house loan for our current residence.
"All" the kids were overjoyed to see their Daddys God keeping His promise to watch over us and to guide us with His Eye. If I were anything like I was before my conversion I would more than likely had been bitter towards my daughter for not "protesting a little more" (a moment of transparency) but I know that these are confusing times that we live in and that's all behind us now anyway. She is flourishing and I'm simply grateful for the opportunity to be there for her. Thank You Lord for Your utter faithfulness and for Your Word. You ALONE are worthy of our affection and praise.