Quote on a water bottle by the skin care brand Philosophy - "The more peaceful you are, the more beautiful you become". If that's true, then I must be giving the hobbits a run for their money. Everyone thinks motherhood is a perpetual Huggies advertisement. Well, I'm here to inform you that it is N.O.T. The pregnancy glow slowly dissipated after my son was born. All I was left with were roller coaster hormones which had me blubbering
watching Animal Planet, raccoon eyes and a bleh post baby body (don't judge me, fellow Moms will know exactly what I'm talking about!). I was
determined to get my figure back by doing the P90X, be the best mommy and wife that God wanted me to be, and life would go back to pre baby
normal. Was I in for a rude shock. Not only did the P90X fail miserably because it was too painful for Daniel to watch me killing myself slowly over an hour, but my house started looking like something from the TLC Channel show ' Hoarders' and the pile of dirty dishes proceeded to bury my cat. To make matters worse, my personal Bible study had gone on a sabbatical. I found myself popping a vein whenever Daniel decided to knock the bowl of baby food onto the carpet and wanting to hurl myself out the glass window at the sight of my husbands socks on the floor. The hidden evil streak of OCD was rearing its ugly head. Maybe I wasn't cut out for the new role of 'Supermommy'....
I began to realize that motherhood is truly a calling and only God can give you the grace and patience to go through a 24 hour day with a crying infant.
Humor aside, it was only when I completely yielded (yield defined as giving up control to another) to God and allowed Him to navigate me through this journey called Motherhood, without resistance, that I began to be a different mother to Daniel. A bowl of spilled baby food squashed all over the carpet, doesn't send me into convulsions like it used to (although I do twitch and grimace just a teeny bit). If my husbands socks happen to be in the living room, he doesn't get dinner that night (just kidding).
I'm comforted knowing that Gods grace is all I need when I'm overwhelmed and can't do it on my own. Even though I may never get to do it ALL or
do it all right, its OK with me. To Daniel, I will always be 'Super Mommy', albeit slightly OCD.
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has
chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42
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