Oh Lord do not give up on me
I do not what you ask of me
I even pray resentfully
Just do not Lord let go of me
Of all the lesser-I am less
I won't repent so I don't confess
Supposedly re born-how strange
I have the choice but do not change
LORD? Just checking you're still there
I fear you the most yet take the dare
Where is my conscience-I'm not fighting it out
Not wanting the proof of the self that I doubt
Refusing the pain to face up and surrender
This smile should cover this hopeless pretender
Are you still there Father? Will you keep bearing with me?
I am not fully sorry so please don't forgive me
About to return to my vomit once more
I'm turning from Christ and the love of your law
LORD? Just checking you're listening still
You witness my heart that I'm spiritually ill
I will need a way out yet I don't want to see one
But you are still here so I know you will be one
So worry can wait and fear need not be
You're here for this reason-release me from me.
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