Everyone needs a new beginning, a chance to get it right, start fresh, which can be an enlightening and scary experience.
You have to face things that you have never faced before, and this can cause you to feel fear.
Be of good courage! Remember God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind.
Starting with a new beginning is a chance to have a fresh prospective, into a new way of living.
This is exactly what I needed.
My life before Jesus, was very unstable, confusing, reckless and out of order.
I wore my emotions on my shoulders and if someone gave me a strange look, my mind went into total defense mode.
Constantly,I kept chasing after things, that I assumed would make me happy.
Being a people pleaser was my main function, saying things that would make them look at me differently,with the hope that they would let me join their click or club.
This was a very superficial existance and this is not the way God intended for me to live.
When things didn't go my way I blamed others for my shortcomings.
This was a vicious cycle that was consuming me and I made it impossible for anyone to get close to me.
I needed a new beginning, it was time for me to get a new life.
How could I accompolish this? Was there a miracle pill that I could take? A video tape? A senimnar that I could attend?
Then, I started to reflect on my mother and how she would scare me into going to church.
She put the fear of God in me and I went, but for all the wrong reasons.
Later on in my life, I went back in fourth to church and not having any lasting results on my life outside of the church doors, because I was looking to people to fill the void in me.
If I could just be like the people I saw in church, maybe this would bring me closer to God or if i acted like them, dressed like them etc....
This was my solution I thought.
The more I kept trying to be the perfect church member, the further I got away from the real purpose, which is:To become Christ like.
This required a new beginning with God.
The only way I could do this, was to confess and repent for my old way of life and recommit myself to Jesus.
Immediately my flesh was uncomfortable and it didn't want this change to happen.
I was tired of being like I was and I cried out to Jesus and asked him for forgiveness and he forgave me.
This was the beginning of a brand new life for me and the more I would go after God, the more joy and peace I experience on a daily basis.
Mediating on the word of God and applying it in my life, to real situations is having a remarkable,lasting result.
Now, when ever old memories or behaviors begin to arise, I bring to my mind the word of God concerning this:"Old things have passed away and all things become new through Christ Jesus!