“Help me, Daddy! I’m slipping and I can’t hold on!”
In the stillness and the quiet I hear his soft and gentle voice. “I AM with you. I will not let go.” After several weeks of fighting in the trenches I am battle scarred and weary. I am not strong enough to hold onto my Savior anymore. I am exhausted. In my mind I feel like I have failed the test that was set before me. I made bad choices and I have let down my Father. I am a failure. In the stillness and the quiet I hear his gentle voice. His perception of me is so different from my own.
“My daughter, lift up your head. A great battle has been fought and won. Not only did you resist temptation, you shared my Gospel with one who otherwise would not have received it. Well done! This day I have rolled away your reproach. You are blameless in my sight.”
In my mind’s eye I was only able to see the mistakes and bad judgment calls. In God’s eyes he sees the truth.
“I have removed the load of your shame, tossing it aside like the filthy garment that it is. You are blameless, treasured, and adored. Eat of my produce. All that I have is yours.”
I am starting to understand another great truth about my God. During the times when I feel the most defeated and unworthy, He is the most proud of me. As he sings to me during the quiet hours of dawn, I hear his heartbeat in the darkness. “You are right, you did fail. You failed to hide secrets. You failed to act on impure thoughts and motives. You failed to bring dishonor to me. You failed to make me love you any less than I already do.”
Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him… Psalm 37:5
“Everyone will look upon your justice and righteousness as the sun. You will blind them with your radiance.”
As long as we are walking in Truth, we are beautifully blameless. No matter what.