My wife and I came to the hospital there has been done a little surgery on my wife’ forehead. The surgery ran well. But what a hell upon us to tell, I got surprised so did my wife. We are surprised that what we face to day is unfathomable. I remember four years ago my wife – Shinta, when there was something surgery on her right leg. We got no cost when there’s a something - lump. The price this time surprised us.
This case again reminds me of last Christmas 2003, when my wife Shinta had to stay in the hospital. A nephlothic syndrom happened to her. To tell you the truth I did not have preparation. She had to suffer this illness. Looking at the bill of my wife’s medicinal treatment. I got confused for I had not much money. The bill was 5 times of my monthly’s salary. I am as a civil servant and a low staff don’t have such an amount. I have been working for more than 25 years. To my surprised the government gave only subsidy 5 % for medical treatment.
I did my best to borrow from my relative but none of them eager or ready to lend. I was annoyed for this. Why did God allow this suffering happened to my wife, to me too ? Finally exactly after doing my best, at night by the same time people celebrated Christmas in the church but we did not. Precisely I got someone and lent me money. It was December 2003. The transaction executed at the cashier’s room. Many struggle I am facing, the 3 kids needed something else. The problem there was still remaining 1/8 of the total payment. It was annoyed too when the staff of cashier called me again-again by phone when will I pay the resting. I was annoyed for they did not ask it politely, they did the way they were and very rough. My question was, why the government only deducted 5 % from the total amount.? I prayed again and again so did my wife.
Now it happend again with my wife bill of the payment at the government hospital. My 3 kids need financial payment for their school fee. I do not paid yet until now and my wife’s bill comes again. Due to my bad financial condition, so we had a negotiation, I am going to pay the payment at the end of this month.
Surprised for the second time why the government just responsible for 5 % only, as the deduction has been cut off per month from my salary since 25 years ago. That’s my struggle. Does this examination happened to me? I am sure God will kindly help and give me the way out to this struggle of ours. I am nothing before Him. But God I believe. He will help me. To whom should I give this burden if not to God Almighty? As the Psalm says : “Give your burdens to the Lord, and He will take care of you. He will not permit the goldly to slip and fall” I believe in it.
Unforeseenly we thanked God for we could finally paid the bill by the helping of someone lend me and he did not determine when to pay. “The most important thing, you may pay your account payable first,” He said. God gave the way out to those who asked for Him.
By this happening, it reminds me how great Thou are. He has helped me much in my struggle of life. I am allowed to face the problem. How heavy the burden could be, He is always appears by His own way and a with a certain miracle, giving the way out the pressence of helping in His own way in order so, I finally found the solution on my family’s problem of life. May God always be with us. Be my planning Be HIS.
Tangerang – Indonesia.
19th July 2005
22nd September 2011