Well, it was a frog actually, but I know that little green guy was on a mission from God.
It all started last weekend at the She Speaks conference. I knew I was there for a purpose by the way in which God perfectly orchestrated the events in my life to get me there. It gave me no other choice but to believe there was purpose. As to what that purpose was, I was still unsure.
From the second I stepped off the plane I had a giant exclamation point and question mark hovering over my head. I was so excited, and yet clueless at the same time. When I loaded the shuttle to head over to the hotel, I was met by a handful of beautiful Jesus girls there for the conference as well. We got to talking about where we were from and what lead us there, and about that time each one of them reached into their bags and handed out their professional business cards, with their catchy ministry tagline and website printed on it.
Ok, lesson one for next year...print business cards. See, I'm learning already.
As the day progressed I continued to pick up on additional nuggets- tricks of the trade for those in speaking, writing, or women's ministry. Ideas were bouncing around in my head left and right.
As Gennie and I met back up that night we began to brainstorm on all we had learned that day, what our hopes were for the conference, along with questions and challenges we still had in our ministries and the hopes we had that He would bring clarity and resolution to those by the end of the conference.
The next morning I felt certain He was starting to put the pieces together. While sitting in one conference, I had a Jesus moment- the exact one I was hoping for. I felt certain that He had just given me this "idea" which was going to be the end-all-be-all-purpose for both of us attending this conference. It was a genius idea, straight from heaven. It solved all the questions and challenges we expressed the night before. It gave purpose, meaning, and clarity.
I couldn't wait to share it with Gennie. She was in a different session so I texted her..."I think I've heard from heaven!!! Hit me like a ton of bricks! I can't wait to share." I eagerly ran to meet her and I began showing her my brainstorming map where I had jotted down every last detail that I felt him revealing to me. When I was finished with my "presentation", I waited in anticipation for her to respond with her complete agreement as to this brilliant idea God had given me.
Her response..."Meredith, I'm hearing God telling me to be still."
Huh? Now, how can I argue with that? But I certainly wanted to. How in the world could God be telling me to "go for it" with this big idea, and at the same time be telling her to "be still"? One of us was wrong, and I just knew it wasn't me.
It was at that exact time that God intervened, and He pooped on my plans. Again, not directly from Him, but indirectly from the cute little green frog smiling at me from the umbrella over my head.
Seriously God, what just happened?
We didn't have time to analyze the divine gift from above which was now smeared across my plans, because the next session was about to begin. We went our separate ways, now more confused than ever.
Over the next several hours, God spoke clearer to me from that poop than he has in any other way. I learned that my purpose there was simply to soak Him up, to "be still" as Gennie had heard, to seek Him, to check my heart, to relinquish my plans and agenda, and to fully open my hands to heaven and be able to say in full faith, "thy will be done."
I still believe in that "big idea", but the bigger lesson God was trying to teach me was disguised in a little brown pile of crap.
I'll make the next step clear.
How often does it seem as if God poops on your plans?
Maybe you planned on going a new direction in your career, but closed door after closed door reveals that's not in the plans right now. Poop.
Maybe you've been saving up for something you had planned, but life hit, and that money had to go elsewhere. Poop.
Maybe you had a plan to be happily married at this stage in your life, but that hasn't quite panned out yet. Poop.
Maybe you've planned on being a mom with a house full of kiddos, but infertility issues has you still waiting. Been there, done that, so I can testify- It's poop.
My challenge to you is this...can you find the purpose in the poop? Maybe he's not saying "no", but rather, "not now". Like me, I don't know that He's closing the door on this "big idea", he's simply saying "Not now Meredith, just be still and wait for me. And while you wait, try to not view this poop as poop, but rather as a blessing in disguise. I'm at work. Can you trust me with that?"
And I believe He's saying the same to all of us. God is always at work and He longs to give us the desires of our heart. Will we have the blind faith and strength it takes to whisper these simple words when He poops on our plans,
"God, I trust you. And while I wait for you to reveal your purpose and plan for my life, I will seek you. Thank you for loving me first and for your faithfulness, and for the confidence I can have in knowing that you hold all things in the palm of your hand."
God is good, all the time. And all the time, God is good. Even in the poop.
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