april 17, 1976.
Miss. Diary, fear is terrible, it's parylizing, it's frightening. I'm tired of the war in my mind and heart. No peace from the constant tug-a-war. I want to die, but I'm afraid to die. I want to live, but again I'm afraid to live. War and peace who's going to win? Right now it is a tie though the situation seems bleek.
April 28, 1976.
Another day of battle royal rageing within this wornout battle ground. Miss. Diary I'm about ready to get it over with, but what then? What's the use? I'm so tired. I'm so afraid. Isn't there an answer , isn't there some one who can help me? Everything seems so black and so hopeless.
May 01, 1976.
Well now I've done it, but things are looking brighter. I still don't see much hope at least not yet. I'm in love! Things are looking up. I don't feel like I'm being pulled apart any more. The bombbarredment of fear has lifted from me. I cried out for help and got an answer. Miss. diary I have been rescued.
May 03, 1976.
I am learning so very much about my true love. Besides being my rescuer, my love is now my best friend. What JOY! I've always had a terror of the dark and the unknown, but now I'm not alone, I don't have to face them by myself. I can't wait to learn more and share it with you Miss. diary.
May 09, 1977.
Well Miss. diary I'm backI'm ready to share more about my love. For one thing, my love is the only one I can say is perfect. My love is strong but gentle, wise but meek, loving, truthful and faithful. I know I'm getting ready to tell you my loves name. (Drum roll please) My loves name is Jesus Christ. Yes, God's son who is my Lord and Saviour, He is my elder brother as well as my best friend. He is my rescuer, my redeemer, my Shepherd and so much more. And the best thing I have found out about Him is that He can be your true love as well if you only take Him as your Lord and Saviour. Just ask God to forgive you of your sins, then acknowledge that Jesus came to earth was born, lived, was crucified, barried and resorrected on the third day and you want Him to come and live in your heart making Him Lord of your lifeand you'll find life also. O what joy!