In my life, I have had many storms come my way. I haven't dealt with them very well. Instead of going through the storms, I would stop in the middle pondering and worrying. Therefore I had problems; I knew that to be successful I would have to allow God to help me through them because it was apparent that I couldn't do it alone.
I knew that with God’s help it would become easier to handle them. Yet, I didn't take my own advice I continued handling them in my own way.
I had been dealing with a storm that involved my daughter and granddaughter. During her daughter childhood I made some bad choices that had caused our relationship to be strained, which made in difficult getting to know my granddaughter.
Guilt followed me daily eating away my insides causing me to engage in many destructive habits in effort to manage one full night of sleep or one day without crying about what I had done to her.
I knew that God does look beyond our faults and sees our need. Therefore, I prayed and asked him for another chance with her. I didn't really believe as I should have because of I was unable to forgive myself.
Unknown to me at the time God was about to stop by and bless me. He; the one that never sleeps; the one who promises to take care of his children at all cost and to forgive them unlimited amount of times.
My blessing came as a result of a dispute that occurred between my sister and I which is where my daughter and granddaughter were staying. There were words exchanged which lead to my daughter and granddaughter leaving and moving in with me.
If anyone would have told me two years ago that this would happen. I would have to tell them they were crazy.
God never forgot what I asked him for in the midst of my storm. He poured out that blessing to me. I thank him daily, which has strengthened my personal relationship with him. It lets me know that no matter what I am going through I “Believe” that God will always be there for me in the midst of my storms.
I still cry; not because of the storm but because as I look over at my daughter and granddaughter sleeping next to me. It wipes all the past hurt, guilt and pain; giving me freedom to bend over and kiss them at will .It repaired my heart that once ached on a daily basis now pumps with happiness and joy
If you have a need never stop believing for that need which may be buried deep down inside of you because God knows your heart and he knows what you want and need. It doesn't matter if you are in a storm he will stop by your place and bless you.