When I was seven years old, my Grandma died and my Grandpa came to live with us. For fifty years he had been a circuit-riding preacher across Tennessee and Kentucky. He sat on our front porch in an old cane-bottomed chair for much of the time with a worn Bible on his knees. He was a natural target for a curious seven year old, and we became porch mates. He told me the story of Jesus, and I fell hopelessly in love and have never looked back. But the intervening years from seven to ninety have taken me over a circuitous route of faith. For years I tried convincing folks by beating them over the head with the Bible, book, chapter and verse, then truth-in-love talk, then getting to know them before even mentioning faith. In the meantime, I was reading books by people who were answering questions that have no answers, just opinions. They stretched across wide horizons, and I dug deep and thought a lot. I was hearing and trying to answer doubters and their questions to justify my faith in God. And to prove the unprovable. Like Job, I tried to find answers, but when God asked me where I was when He laid the foundation of the earth, like Job, I put my hand over my mouth, recognizing that some things are too wonderful for me. Closer to our world, even the science of mathematics recognizes that some things are true without proof. They are axiomatic. Strange that no one ever seems to question this postulate. But God is the foremost example of the axiomatic: true without proof.
It was a circuitous trip eventually ending up after decades right back where it started. My faith now is that of a simple, trusting child. I know that my Redeemer lives (so did Job). I know in Whom I have believed (as did Paul). No more worry about hard questions with answers withheld from us, no more doubts. just wholesome, happy and complete trust in my Father, His Son and the Holy Spirit, and the Catalog that tells us all we need to know about the here and the hereafter. It is a comfort zone like no other.
“Except you become as a little child, you shall in no wise enter into the kingdom of God.” Matt. 18:3
A few years ago I had an accidental shotgun accident. My wife began calling for prayer. One person said, "You know God guided everyone of those pellets." My wife told me about this several days later when I woke up. The thought came to me (not my own), "The Bible tells us that this earth will melt away in a fervent heat and God will make a new heaven and earth, so He has to know where every molecule in the universe is all the time."
That's how big our God is!
Thank you Aline. Well written and so true.