A Call for Restoration
By Janice S Ramkissoon
26th May 2011
If you are travelling with pain, this one’s for you. Your heart bears the sting of rejection. Your mind is dressed with fears of the unknown. You feel hopeless. Although you know the scriptures, you haven’t yet learned how to apply it to your life, so you travel with the chain of past mistakes and the weight of hurt and pain. Anger, frustration and guilt are your best friends. You feel trapped, alone and afraid, like no one cares. You’re no longer motivated to fellowship with the saints and tears are your language. Jesus came to heal your brokenness.
The Cross represents freedom. Jesus died to set us free. “So if the Son sets you free, you will indeed be free.”* However, the door to our freedom is forgiveness. This may sound simple to some but there are many broken vessels in our midst needing a helping hand to embrace forgiveness. Although Christ died to set us free, we each have to find our own path to forgiveness. This is where many Christians get stuck in a rut, unable to access that door to freedom.
Whether you are the victim or the perpetrator, if you find that the events of your past have crippled you and you cannot move forward (with your personal life, your marriage, friendship or your career/ministry) then be encouraged! God has not forgotten you. Forgiveness is available to you today, and so is healing and restoration. Please allow me to share my story with you.
I felt the sting of rejection, not being accepted by my parents or feeling part of my fellowship. I was alone and afraid, so I built a wall to protect me from further abandonment but it became my prison. I was inflicting pain on others by not allowing them access to my heart. Resentment had held me captive, I just didn’t know it. I needed to hear the word ‘sorry’ for the wounds I had endured, but the truth is that no one individual was responsible for my pain. It was not between me and the individuals through whom the darts were coming, it was between me and God. I had to forgive those who had hurt me in order to move forward with my life.
After years of grieving the loss of my childhood, I finally found the door to my freedom. I learned that my parents do love me, they just didn’t (and still don’t know) how to show it. This revelation helped me to understand my spiritual family better, recognising that we are all seeking the Physician’s care. I embraced forgiveness and I began to pray that God would open their eyes to the truth so that they would not continue to inflict the same pain onto others.
I now have a growing relationship with my parents and I have embraced my new family through whom the Lord has taken me up, according to Psalm 27:10. On my face are the signs of the wreckage but I’ve given Him all the pieces and He has put them back together again, leaving the signs of His beauty in my heart. His praise shall forever be in my mouth.
Thinking of the cross today I see love. One aspect of love is forgiveness. I am overwhelmed when I think of the freedom I now have to live; knowing that I could only access this life via Christ, through His death on the cross. On my journey towards healing I found a door to forgiveness—the door I had to go through in order to gain my freedom. I was a broken vessel—a sinner in need of grace. I went to the Potter’s house in tears, and today although I’m still being processed, I have found my joy and can’t stop praising.
If you are hurting in any way, you may not be able to see past your hurt and pain at present, but please allow the process of grieving to be completed so you can get your healing. Forgiveness is available to you today. You may be thinking, “I haven’t done anything wrong, they did me wrong.” I too felt that way, but God began to speak to me about forgiveness, so I recognised that something was not right. I had to ask Him to show me where I had gone wrong, and that’s when it was revealed to me that resentment towards my parents was the stumbling block in my walk with Him.
Travelling with the pain of your past hurt can weigh you down, so much that you begin to break. I encourage you, my dear brothers and sisters, to get to the core of your pain and deal with the issue(s) so that you can be free to move forward with your life. Without this freedom you will continue to hurt and in the process inflict pain on those you love. Today, the cross represents healing for you. Acknowledging the cause of your pain is the first step towards being released from its grip. Let the cross remind you that God does care. He cared so much that He closed His eyes for a moment in time, looking away from His only Son, who took on our sins so that we could be reinstated to our royal status. This article comes to remind you that you are precious in His sight—a gem in earthen vessel. You are about to be beautified.
Understanding that Jesus died for us, paying the price of sin--death**, I realise that I no longer needed to bear the load. He has already nailed it to the cross—we no longer owe a debt for our sins. God’s anger has been satisfied. He knew we would mess up and continue to hurt each other and that is why He made a way for us to be re-connected to Him. It was evident at this point that I needed to forgive those who hurt me in order to receive God’s forgiveness. Whenever I felt that anger developing towards those who have inflicted pain on me, I would ask God to help me to ignite the fruit of the spirit+ so I can stay within His will. That’s how I was able to embrace forgiveness. Today, I’m encouraging you to do the same. Accept His forgiveness and extend the same to others—release the toxin within your heart and start to live a life of fullness.
You may be a lamb out there wondering if anyone cares. Yes! Our heavenly Father cares. I found out through my struggles that He does care for me. I am comforted by His word and as I apply the word to my life, I find that I gain the strength to climb mountains and go through the valleys. And though I can’t swim, when I find myself in deep waters He stretches out His hands, reaches down and pulls me back to shore. So I’ve asked God to use me to let you know that He cares. Sing along with me and praise your way out of the rut that you are in:
“Oh yes, He [Jesus] cares
I know He cares
His heart is touched with my grief
When the days are dreary
The long nights weary
I know my Saviour cares.”
While praising, listen for that still, soft voice, instructing you on the practical thing you must do. Be patient and know that He will come through for you when the time is right. While waiting, He’s perfecting you so just keep on praising in spirit and in truth. He’ll take care of all your needs and you will see your breakthrough. Say like me, “He did it for me. He paid the price for my sins and set me free. It was me that He was thinking of on the cross and today I am debt free all because He chose to save me. I am no longer chained to sin. I am free to worship Him.”
Smile! You’ve just entered the praise zone which will take you to your breakthrough. You shall not die. You shall live. Rise and Shine. Your morning has come!
Love and blessings
Your sister in Christ Janice S Ramkissoon
*__St. John 8:36
[This article was written based on our Shires District’s 2011 Easter convention theme,“The Cross, The Crown, The Blood—The Symbols of Freedom”. I focused on the cross and the theme of forgiveness.]
A beautiful write dealing with the issue of forgiveness.
I can identify with so much of what you write!
The whole essay is well written, using personal feelings to highlight the problem and personal experience to show the answer.
'If you are hurting in (anyway) any way.'