I don't know about you but I have found that the very things that I had been running from most of my life and the weapons which were fashioned against me even from birth are turning out to be the very tools in order to equip me for my designed purpose.
The very thing that Satan meant to bring harm to me whether through my own choices based on deception, or by the hand of others, although meant for my destruction has now become the weapon and tool forming a passion within the depths of of my soul, creating in me a desperation to see truth restored not only in my own life but in the life of others as well.
Let me give you an example, I have feared most of my teen as well as adult life to build relationships with the ones I desired most to be close to, because of my past experiences with rejection, whether it was by emotional abandonment, physical abandonment or the sudden separation of death. The one thing my heart cried out for was to be connected, to belong, to be close to others, my others, and the others of God.
Within me I was a strong outspoken people person however on the outside I was hidden, untouchable and reserved, terrified of my surroundings. However this drastically changed when the Love of God truly touched my life and the truth of His acceptance was restored to me. From then on I was flooded with the desire to love and to give to others unconditionally.
This love has become a powerful force as well as a weapon in my life in order to cut through the enemies which lies in others lives as well as a force to protect me from the "human condition" in others.
As I walk in this powerful love I am able to overcome the 'rejection' of others and see the heart the 'white heart' that lies deep within the souls of others rather then their reactions to their own pain and fears.
We all have a cry deep within in our heart and it runs deep, we must not fear it based on our personal past experiences or shrink back running from it-we must let it have its voice and cry it back to God so that He can bring it to fruition, while delivering us from all that would keep us from our destiny.
If we are not met first with His powerful love which delivers our soul and transforms our lives, we will become trapped and somewhat paralyzed never able to fully grasp the things our Father created for us and the fulfillment we were all meant to experience.
Here is a story that caught my attention; it is a story about a man who let discouragement and grief rob him of his dream. There are many reasons we abort our passions and dreams but discouragement and fear seem to be the underlying force behind them all.
Terah, who was Abrahams Father, had three sons Abraham, Nahor, and Haran.
Terah had taken his three sons and was headed to Canaan-the promise land.
Terah had a cry in his heart to go to Canaan, I do not know where it says God spoke to him-but something inside of this man just knew where he was suppose to be so he packed up his family to begin his journey, but something happened unexpected to Terah, his son died.
Now if that doesn’t bring discouragement to your sould and a fear to move on then I don’t think anything can.
In verse 29 of chapter 11 it tell us that Haran died in his native land “before” his Father.
At first I took that to be speaking of the fact that he had died before his Father as an indication of time, but when I looked up the word 'before' I saw that it meant in front of his Father which for me personally put a totally different spin on this story.
Can you imagine losing one of your own ‘before’ your very eyes, perhaps even as you are holding them in your arms, what grief and pain and perhaps even the anger you might go through? Definitely a place discouragement might try to make its home.
As they set out from there to Canaan they came to a place called ‘Haran’, and camped there, what happen to going to Canaan?
Doesn't it seem strange that this place had the same name as his son, which he had lost? Perhaps this is the place where Terah stopped to rest and because of his grief he decided he could not go on.
We must be careful not to retreat when the storms of life seem to beating down upon us and wearing us out, our promised land is still out there and we must continue, there lies our success, there lies the reason for our existence, and there lies the joy out of the pain.
‘Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning’; we are promorningo things, first we are promised a morning and second we are promised ‘joy’. When I looked up tJoyaord 'joy' it spoke of a great celebration of victory. I don’t know about you but I want my victory.
So many times we try to move on in the physical to our destination, to what we were created for, but something from our past holds us with what it seems like a death grip on our hearts; a failure perhaps, a hurt, or even the devastating loss of a loved one and we hold on so tight to that which is familiar.
Terah was not meant to camp there, only to pass through. Because of his great loss and pain he lost sight of the vision, the dream and his passion that was once so alive in his heart.
A second tragedy:
Verse 32 tells us that Terah died in Haran.
Not only had Terah lost his son but now he had lost the privilege of knowing the joy of his victory, he lost his dream and his destiny.
We must not let the pain and loss of the past hold on to us, but we must allow God to use the good with the bad and preserveer to our Promised LpreserverBR>If we allow, the Lord will fashion the bad as well as the good to bring about His purposes in and through our lives for His Kingdom-and this is where I believe our personal success lies- in fulfilling our intended purpose. Not the money, not the fame but the ‘well done good and faithful servant’ at the end of our road when we meet Him face to face
What will matter the most at the end of our lives here in this earth will not be the clothing we have, the money we've made, or our personal social status, not the houses we live in, it will not be what our family thinks of us, or what kind of car we drive. It will not matter how many sick we have seen healed, or crippled walk or blind see, or even how many people we have raised from the dead.
The ONLY thing that will matter and the ONLY thing that will give us peace and the satisfaction in our souls when that time comes is; Did I follow Gods plan for my life-did I fulfill Gods intended purpose for my life-this is the place of peace, this is our place of rest, this is the place of complete joy and satisfaction- VICTORY!
So, lets find our place and run this race to its completion.
Many things can happen on this track of life- we can trip and fall, it can be slippery, or it can be hot and dry. He 'the lover of our soul' picks us up and brushes us off and He set us on the track, He equips us for the run and He is always there to run with us, so let’s keep our focus on the goal and not forget that He awaits there with the prize-
Angie M Sheets
11210 4th street
Rancho Cucamonga, California