Life is difficult, a roller coaster out of control.
I seek the Lord for guidance, praying daily for His Peace.
It is a light at the end of a tunnel.
The more of my life I give to God, the closer the light becomes.
Total submission to Him has brought this victory.
Finally, I am ready to step out of the tunnel, my Lord's outstretched hand I faintly see.
As I reach to take his hand, I feel intense pain as knives are thrust into my back.
Trust in man has failed me once again.
The numbness of betrayal sets upon my heart.
As I lay paralyzed I cry out to my God, "Why now Lord? Why now?"
My Lord answers with a whisper in my ear,
"Because my child, I have one more hurt you must endure.
It will give you strength for the plans I have for you."
My heart is sad and broken in two.
The will to go on is faint as I picture my life in ruins.
Too weak to move, my Lord whispers once again, "Worship Me for strength my child."
I hear another voice, Satan whispers in my ear as he shows my past mistakes.
His voice is tender but burns my heart; he says I should relive the past.
Confusion is upon me now, my mind races for direction.
Satan coaxes me to cope with hurts without my God or His plan.
He whispers "send Him away; you don't need God or His music in your life."
I hear God cry out my name, "My child I love you, worship Me for strength!"
Cradled in my Fathers hands, a memory struggles to the surface.
A memory with music.
I hear a women's urgent song, she cries out, “Lord I seek You,” her face I cannot see.
She is seeking God for strength.
Her victory over Satan is revealed as she raises her arms in praise to God.
Then I see her face in a familiar room.
Alone in my room, praising God in solitude.
Finally, I feel that past victory in this memory.
I Must feel it completely, but I cannot move.
"My God," I cry, "Help me please!"
He answers and I am no longer paralyzed.
I embrace the solitude and God's music in my room.
In the darkness I close my eyes and listen to our song, too numb to sing the words aloud I recite them silently.
Once again, God whispers to me, "My child, I am always here & will never forsake you. I sent My Son for you!"
Tears flow and soak my face.
As I sit up, I cry out, "I am seeking you Father. I sit at Your feet upon my bed."
Then my arms I wrap around myself as they hold His strong arms tight.
I lay against my Lord and breath, His heartbeat is so strong.
God’s love overwhelms me and more tears flow.
His peace fills my soul as I drink from His cup.
God did not fail me, His promise did not end.
Repeatedly I listen to our song and sing along until the numbness is gone.
Then I am whole once again and God's Peace has returned to completely flood my soul.
I cry out to my God and I sing the song to Him as I stand, I raise my hands, in praise and victory again.
Once again, the tunnel end is near.
I see the bright light clearly as I reach a trembling hand unto my Lord.
My hand he holds tightly.
With joy I step into the light.
Father, Now I am ready for Your plan!
The Victory is Yours!
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