He called me one day and said, “Can we walk awhile? I need to talk to you!”
Fear entered my mind because I knew I had been letting him down. My heart knew I must be a disappointment. Life was rough, not the way I felt it should be for me. I felt he wasn’t helping me enough. I reached out to him for help and received none. I even got specific. I told him what I wanted. Yet I felt very hurt and betrayed because I didn’t get my way.
As I slowly walked beside him, with my head down, he said, “I know you’ve been having a tough time”
Then why didn’t you help?
You needed to learn.
Learn, don’t you mean be punished?
No, you needed to learn to pray, then you needed to learn to trust.
But Father, I trust you!
I know you think you do but the more you grow, the more you need to know. I would never let more happen to you than I know you can handle.
Then why is it so hard sometimes? Why does it hurt? I know you could take it away or change it.
When you are weak child the world is watching you. When you are strong you are able to help others. When you’re really scared, you remember I can help you. Yet even knowing all of this, we drift apart.
Child, I love you and you will always be my child. The most important thing for you to remember is that through you people see me.
The other important thing to know is that my arms are always open and ready to
hug and comfort you. If we talk I can help you see the answers and together we can share the joys and celebrations.
Do you understand child?
My love is always yours and I will always listen. But child sometimes the answers to prayers are please wait. So have Patience, and you will see. When I feel it’s right, you will know. But sometimes child I have to say no, because I know what is best.
But Father how can I know then what to ask of you then?
Child, it’s alright, I don’t mind your asking.
Suddenly I understood. My fears went away and I felt stronger and God said, “That is good child, because I too enjoyed our walk.”