As I said earlier, there was no fear (no fear in the presence of love Himself) or hesitation in coming to her Father when she was hurt. Or, for any reason. It was clear that she was confident in her “Daddy,” knowing that no matter what the problem, without question, He could and would fix it and make it all better. Glory to God!
I saw trust without reservation for her Father. Trust that every time she came to Him, He would always be waiting to embrace her in His love and acceptance. Trust that He would never turn her away for any reason. Trust that He would never be too busy to give her His undivided attention. She had this kind of trust because she was secure in Father’s love and acceptance. So secure in His love that she could come, crawl up in His lap and love on Him, being confident that He would reciprocate it back to her many times greater than what she was able to give.
Even after “Daddy” had taken care of the problem she had brought to His attention, she didn’t wander off away from Him. I saw that the little girl stayed close to her Father. She remained in His presence and therefore, in intimate communion with Him. This is the desire of the Father’s heart, to have His children close and in intimate communion with Him. Our Father God wants to receive love from us, just as we want to receive love from Him. The truth is, you can’t give love until you KNOW love. “God is love” (I John 4:8).
‘I Like Her:’
A few days after I had seen this vision, I was in the bathroom preparing to go do some grocery shopping. As I got ready, I tried to process more of what God was showing me and teaching me through seeing the little girl. As I pondered over everything, I began to see purpose. Sometimes, we don’t always know at the beginning what purpose God has for certain things that come about in our lives. We have to trust Him to reveal a nugget of His purpose to us in His timing when He knows we are ready to receive it.
As I often do when I’m in the bath or fixing my make-up and hair, I use the time to pray and talk to God. Thus, I was thanking Him for teaching me so many things lately that I had not seen or known before. I was experiencing new freedom in areas that before had held me in bondage, and it was wonderful.
In reviewing the visions of the little girl, I smiled to myself and said something that took me by surprise. I had not planned to say what I did and so I paused to go back over what I had just said. “And you know, Lord, I kind of like this little girl. I think she’s cute.” It was then that I saw more fully how God was, in part, showing me this child in ways that I had either not known her, or had forgotten about.
It was to re-acquaint me with her. God had brought me to the point where I could honestly say about this child, who was actually me, “I like her.” That was a beginning toward learning to truly love and not dislike myself. How many of God’s children today still can’t say of themselves, “I like me?” Let alone say, “I love me?”
We are commanded to love God with all our hearts, and love our neighbors as we love ourselves. But do we? I believe God is working by His Spirit to bring His children revelation from His word that we are loved and accepted totally in the beloved Jesus (Eph.1:6). I believe that with the truth He’s revealing, many of God’s children are going to experience a new freedom to say with confidence about themselves, “I not only like me, but I love me; because God loves me.” Hallelujah! Get in the love flow!
As for my situation, what might have seemed strange really didn’t seem strange to me at all. That is, that God wanted to re-acquaint me with the little girl part of me. I had not seen this little girl (the child in me) for many, many years. She had been hidden deep inside me as someone unacceptable. I had known rejection by others but worse than that, I had rejected ‘me’ because I felt worthless.
Now, I heard the Lord say, “I want you to love her (the child) and accept her the same way that I love and accept her.” At the time, that was a TALL order. I have to be honest and say that for a moment, I wasn’t too thrilled to hear Father tell me this. Therefore, my response of, “Okay, God,” was less than enthusiastic. I said, “I hear you but let me point out a few things to you.” How foolish and presumptuous we can be at times to think God needs straightening out because we think He’s got things all wrong. Ouch! In fact, double ouch on that! Thank God for His long-suffering and His loving grace and mercy.
I continued, “I think I see what’s going on and that’s fine and well, but that little girl grew up into a teenager, then into an adult who did some things that weren’t very nice. She got into rebellion and all sorts of things, so what about her? I can’t say I like her the way I said I like the little girl. So, what about her?” I persisted. As I got quiet, I had the feeling that the proverbial ‘other shoe was about to fall.’ I wondered what the Lord would say to me now. I didn’t have long to wait. He said simply and plainly, “That little girl never did change from who she was. She just went into hiding.”
That powerful statement of truth hit my spirit like a sledge-hammer. There was nothing else I could say. The ‘other shoe’ had indeed fallen. Truth had come that I couldn’t deny. And thank God that He’s quick to forgive when we’re quick to repent of arrogant foolishness (I John 1:9). Amen.
Later, as I thought back over what the Lord had said to me, I had not realized to what extent I (the child) had gone into hiding until it was revealed to me. None of us can truly know the depths of our hiding until Holy Spirit reveals it and then helps us face the truth so we can come out of hiding. Of course, you have to want to come out of hiding and then get in agreement with truth revealed so you can take that first step.
If God is dealing with you today and saying that its time for YOU to come out of rabbit holes of hiding, its because He has something so much better for you. He wants to do a new thing in your life. He wants to heal you, free you and make you whole in Him. But know this, the devil wants to keep you in that hiding hole so you can’t reach your full potential in God. Also, know this, as long as you stay in that hole of hiding, you are not a serious threat to satan and his evil kingdom. You have been neutralized through deception.
Being secure in Father’s love, you make a quality decision you don’t back down from that says you want to come OUT of those hiding holes to go after your “Daddy” with all your heart. This is when the devil begins to take more notice of you as a serious threat. Its when you decide to seek after God with your whole heart and you strive in agreement with Holy Spirit to reach your full potential in whatever God has called you to for His Kingdom. This is when you can do serious damage to satan’s kingdom. I like to say it this way, you will have become ‘armed and dangerous.’ Being led by the Holy Spirit, this is when you can begin pulling down strongholds in your life and relationships, as well as helping others do the same through testimony and prophetic intercession. Amen! Praise God!
No Fear In Love:
One morning, several days later while in prayer and worship, I began declaring, “Jesus, your name is above every name. You are Wonderful, Counselor, Prince of Peace, Eternal Father, everlasting Father. You’re my strong and mighty tower to run into, my refuge…” As soon as I said the word, ‘refuge, I immediately saw the Father. He was seated in a great chair with His arms extended out on the arms of it. Once again, I couldn’t see His face clearly but I was always drawn to the Father’s face.
He was dressed in white that looked so pure and there was light all around Him. I noticed His hands draped over the arms of the chair---those precious healing hands of love. Just then, I caught sight of the little girl run into the vision from the left and run to the Father as hard as she could. She didn’t crawl up in His lap this time the way she had before. This time, she jumped up in the Father’s lap and wound both arms around His neck. As she did, I heard her say, “Daddy, I’m scared!” With this, she hugged Him tighter.
When the Father had seen the little girl running toward Him, He raised up in His chair and leaned forward to catch her as she jumped into His arms. I felt His love as He enfolded the little girl in His strong and protective arms. I was drawn to look at the Father’s face again. Though I couldn’t see distinctive features, I could tell that His face was radiant and full of love. He closed His eyes in pleasure as He hugged His child close to His breast. In a voice that reflected a tender and loving heart toward His child, I heard Him say, “Don’t be afraid. I have everything under control.”
James 4:8 says that when we draw close to God, He will draw close to us. This is what I saw happen as I watched the little girl running to her Father and Him reaching out to receive her with joy. Over and over, time and again in the OT and the NT, the Lord has told us, “don’t be afraid---let not your heart be troubled---fear not, I am with you.” When problems and circumstances happen that causes us to be afraid, Father God wants us to run TO Him and not away from Him to hide in a rabbit hole. He doesn’t want us thinking that we have to take care of ourselves in these times, believing that if we don’t no one else will.
The power of God’s love, shed abroad in our hearts, when released by faith, has the power to cast out any fear that tries to attach itself to us.
I John 4:18, “There is NO fear in love; but perfect (mature) love casts out fear: because fear has torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love.”
Remember, “God is love” (I John 4:8). The more we grow and are filled with the love of God, like flushing out a radiator, if you will, the love of God will flush out fear. It will cast it, or kick it out of your house (temple). Then, peace comes and the fullness of joy comes to under gird you with strength to stand steady on the Rock. Amen!
We are not to run from fear but rather we resist the devil and the Bible says, HE will run from US in fear (James 4:7). Hallelujah! With confidence, we come to our “Daddy” God with anything that troubles us, using His love, His word and the power of the anointing to confront and conquer those troubling things. If you will hold onto Jesus, He will hold onto you. God wants each of us to trust Him and believe with child-like faith that He truly does have everything under control.
Matthew 28:18, “Jesus approached and, breaking the silence said to them, All authority (all power of rule and dominion) in heaven and on earth has been given to me.”
Hebrews 1:3, “He (Jesus) is the sole expression of the glory of God (the light-being, the out-raying or radiance of the divine), and He is the perfect imprint and very image of God’s nature, upholding and maintaining and guiding and propelling the universe by His mighty WORD OF POWER…”
Regardless of what any one of us may be facing or will face in the future, we don’t have to fret and worry ourselves into a frenzy because our Lord and King, Jesus, is well able to work it all out for our good. Amen.
I Believe In You:
During this time of ‘spiritual surgery,’ I was hearing much about being affirmed by your parents, etc. My parents were good people but I couldn’t remember either of them looking me in the eye and saying anything like, “I love you and I believe in you.” They couldn’t give out what had never been put into them by their parents. Still, it was painful to me that I had missed on this.
Late one evening toward the end of summer, I shared more with my husband of what the Lord was doing in my life and how intense my time with Him had been most of this particular day. It was obvious to see that I had been crying quite a bit. That was okay because tears help to bring cleansing to the soul. I related to my husband how I had been dealing with the fact that my parents had never affirmed me and how I had not received the blessing from them (nor had my sister).
As I related this to him, I began to cry again. He was so sweet to me. I mean, here I was sniffing and snubbing, mascara smeared down my cheeks but he made me look at him anyway. I hesitated because I knew I looked a mess but he insisted. He looked me square in the eyes and said with sincerity, “I love you and I believe in you. I believe in what you’re doing for God and I stand with you.” Hearing him say this just made me cry that much harder, but in a good way because I was feeling so blessed.
I threw my arms around him and still snubbing, we held each other, being quiet for a few moments. Within those few quiet moments, I heard the voice of the Lord say to me, “Shirley Ann, I love you, and I believe in you.” His voice was so tender and loving. Immediately, the devil tried to make me believe that I desired to hear this sort of thing so much that I had made it up in my mind. But deep within me, I knew different. Your knower (spirit) just knows when it hears the voice of the Spirit. Amen.
A little while later, I went into the bedroom to be alone and pray. I needed time to process what I had heard the Lord say. Directly, Holy Spirit brought what He had said back to me and asked, “Do you call yourself, Shirley Ann?” My immediate response was, “Well, of course not.” I didn’t have to think twice about that because I had done everything I could to get away from ‘Shirley Ann.’
For a lot of years, I wanted to get away from this ‘Shirley Ann’ person because I didn’t like her very much. I tried to change my identity and become someone else no one knew. I even left my home state of North Carolina trying to get away from this ‘person.’ I can atest to the fact that this doesn’t work because God will bring you back to the point where you have to face what you ran away from. When I left North Carolina, I didn’t fully realize what I was doing when I drove 500 miles to another state.
On some level I knew but at the time all I wanted was to get away from the aftermath of a brutal and painful divorce (1989) I had just come through. I was wounded and I was bleeding emotionally and I needed a quiet place to rest and heal. So, I packed up my car and a U-Haul and came to Kentucky, to horse country. (even Christian’s can divorce, its not God’s best, but that’s another subject).
Shortly after I had got settled in my new home, I started calling myself, ‘Shirl.’ I hoped that people would like ‘Shirl’ better than Shirley Ann. With ‘Shirl’ I could start over and bury the other ‘person’ in the process. I learned something that was not only painful but something very valuable to my future in God. It didn’t matter how deep I tried to bury Shirley Ann and make her go away, she just kept popping up every which way I turned. I had not consciously thought about that happening.
Regardless of how hard I tried, I was never able to truly get away from Shirley Ann. Every time I looked in the mirror, there she was, staring back at me. Isn’t that ridiculous to think that we can actually get away from ourselves? We can bury emotional bruising so deep that we deceive ourselves into believing that we have gotten away from those unwanted parts. The truth is, those things, whatever they may be, are still there with us.
After I had answered the Lord that I didn’t call myself by my full name, He didn’t say anything else right away. Then directly, I heard Him say again, “Shirley Ann, I love you, and I believe in you.” At hearing these words once more, I began crying because I felt the tender heart of My Father extended and revealed to this, His child. Through tears, I responded, “My daddy used to call me, Shirley Ann, but that was only when I had done something wrong and he was disappointed in me.” My Father God revealed Himself to me in that moment that changed me forever where the love of my “Daddy” is concerned.
I saw it then and I said through tears, “Dear Jesus. Oh, God, You’ve called my name like this to let me know that YOU’RE my Daddy now and You see me different. I see it, You redeemed my name when you saved me.” Not only that but He brought restoration and healing to my wounded soul where it had been associated with disappointment. He had brought to me a new revelation of Himself as my ‘Daddy.’ On top of that, He allowed me to tangibly experience His love as He poured it over me like warm honey. I literally felt wrapped up in it like being in a warm cacoon.
The Holy Spirit had said my name with tenderness and without disappointment. He said my name with pleasure because of how much He loved me. He believed in Me because of the blood of Jesus that had redeemed me from eternal torment. He washed away the pain and the shame that had been associated with my name and He had turned my tears into tears of joy. My Papa God, let me know that HE had given me my name for “Shirley” means, ‘happiness of heart.’ My middle name, “Ann” means, ‘graceful.’ Grace is often translated in both the Greek and Hebrew to mean, “favor.”
In researching my name further, I discovered it also means, “a bright meadow--a fertile feeding ground.” Thus, it has to do with part of my calling. Needless to say, I was now no longer ashamed of my name. No longer did I associate my name with disappointment. I came to like my original name. Knowing my heavenly Father had given it to me made all the difference in the world.
Bottom line, my Father God had affirmed me because He was my “Daddy” now and it was so liberating. It came to set this captive child free from a lie of the devil that I had believed for a long time. A belief that I wasn’t worthy to be loved for who I was and was created to be. Bless the Lord! That all changed on this day that I shall never forget. (today in 2011, its still real). Praise God!
This experience was what you could call, ‘up close and personal’ between a Father and His wounded child. It brought Father God to me in a way that I could experience a tangible touch from my “Daddy.” Because it was such a beautiful and glorious moment, it allowed me to touch Him in a way that I had not been able to before but had desired to. God truly does give us the desires of our hearts when we are in agreement with His plan and purpose for our lives.
When Papa God, wrapped His arms of love around me that night, it was so beautiful, so sweet that all I wanted to do was cry. This time, I wasn’t crying tears of sadness, but rather I was crying tears of pure joy. Hallelujah! God does turn your mourning into joy and dancing. Amen! I kept hearing the Lord‘s words, “Shirley Ann, I love you, and I believe in you,” over and over as the truth of it settled down to anchor in my soul. At this point, all I could say was, “Wow!” I was riding glory clouds and smiling all over as I realized that I really did have ‘happiness of heart.’
A Father’s Heart:
Don’t anyone try to tell me that God is not interested in that deep longing in your soul for more of Him. Don’t anybody try to tell me that He’s not moved with compassion when He hears the sincere cry of one of His children. That cry reaches His ears sending out a call, “Daddy, where are you? I need you!” Don’t anybody try to tell me that God wouldn’t move heaven and earth if needed in order to get to you with an answer to your hearts silent cry. If you have been born again by the blood of Jesus, then you are sons and daughters of Almighty God, and He would do whatever is necessary to get to you because He loves YOU that much. He loves you beyond your comprehension. Therefore, you just have to believe His love and accept it by your faith that its true.
He said in His word, that if earthly fathers know how to give good gifts to their children, how much more will your heavenly Father give to them of His Spirit (Matt.7:11). Sometimes we have wondered if God is even listening to us when we pray. At times, you may have thought or presently think that He answers everyone else’s prayers but yours.
But our Lord has promised:
Jeremiah 33:3, “Call unto Me, and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things (fenced and hidden), which you do not know (don’t recognize, have knowledge of, understand).”
That is God’s promise to all His children but we have to be submitted to the Father’s will and be committed to patiently wait for His timing in all matters. You also ask Holy Spirit to reveal to you unknown sin in your heart so you can be cleansed (I John 1:9). You must trust Father, your “Daddy,” that He’s moving by His Spirit to bring all the fragmented pieces of your life together to make one complete picture of who you are in Him. He is moving to heal and bring wholeness to you, mentally, spiritually and emotionally, so you can more fully realize the good plans He has had for you all along (Jeremiah 29:11).
God does nothing without a good purpose in your life no matter what the area is. He wants you to know that you were born with purpose and you have a destiny to fulfill here on this earth. He wants you to know that you count in His plans and you are not insignificant. He wants you to know that you matter to Him because He loves you and believes in you. He wants you to know how important you are to Him because you were created in His image, made in His likeness, and you’re His child. He knows your heart’s longing and He’s ready to fill that longing in your spirit and soul for more of Him. He just had to bring you to the place where you are now ready for that ‘up close’ and intimate relationship with Him.
He wants you to set aside the adult part of you for a moment and be that little child that has been hidden away inside of you. In the innocent trust and faith of that little child, He wants you to come, crawl up in His lap and say, “Daddy, I hurt. I need you.” Allow His love to bind up your wounds and heal that little child’s broken heart. What Holy Spirit told me, in essence was, when the little child within you is healed, then the adult you will walk out that healing and freedom in reality. It will move you on forward in the things of God, in other relationships, in ministry, in business, etc. Whatever God has called you to, you will now approach it with a new prospective. You will begin seeing it through Father’s loving eyes.
It’s the little child who needs to connect with “Daddy” in the kind of intimacy that only an innocent child can have with his or her Father. An innocence that causes the heart to be open and receptive because it hasn’t learned yet how to be hard and bitter due to hurts and disappointments. Its in this attitude of child-like innocence that it allows the little child within to run freely with abandon to Father---to “Daddy.” God wants you to come running to Him, wrap your arms around His neck and tell Him whatever is on your heart. And as you do, allow Him to wrap you up in His tangible love to bring healing, wholeness, and freedom to your soul.
Children of all ages, grown men and women, all want and need to be affirmed by their earthly daddy’s. When the affirmation and blessing is withheld from children at a young age, for whatever reasons, it leaves a void in the soul. Its important to have an earthly parent’s affirmation, but its even more important to know that your heavenly Father affirms you and believes in you.
God put’s in each person the potential for greatness to be manifested outwardly and used for His kingdom purposes in the earth. This potential means that we are capable of many things not yet in existence in the natural, but by faith, those things that be not can be called to come forth and manifest (Romans 4:17). This potential for greatness makes plenty of room for growth in many areas of our development from birth to adulthood.
Though God puts this potential for greatness in us from the beginning, its not always immediately evident so as to say, it is this or that. This is why we need our parents affirmation early in our lives. We need them to encourage the gifts and talents that, as we grow, begins to manifest. It is the potential for greatness that God has deposited in us.
For example, your son might show interest in building things as he begins to grow. If you, his father happens to be a banker and you have your heart set on your son following in your corporate footsteps, because his interests differs from your’s, your displeasure and disappointment will come through to him loud and clear. You may think that your son’s desire to build things with his hands is beneath you as a banker, but keep in mind, its not beneath your son.
Therefore, don’t discourage him. Don’t shame him so that he feels foolish for expressing this desire to you. Don’t crush his dream of being a builder with harsh criticisms. Don’t try to smash to pieces the dream that lives on the inside of him. A vision so vivid that he can see it, feel it and even smell the lumber because its become such a part of him. And who knows, he may one day build all the banks.
Many people, men and women alike, grew up never being told by their parents how precious they were and how loved they were. Some parents told their children that God loved them and had a good plan for their lives, but some didn’t. If parents, especially ‘daddy’ never says to his son or daughter, ‘I love you and I believe in you,’ that child grows up with a hole in their soul. They will yearn for it to be filled and that’s why people try to fill this void with alcohol, drugs, food, sexual perversions, work, charities, etc. This longing in the soul makes a person cry out for, not only an earthly daddy, but for “Daddy” God.
Romans 8:15 (AB), “You have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba (daddy, papa).”
Like the Holy Spirit told me one time early in my walk with Him, “If you will seek out love, you will find the Father.” Immediately, John 4:8, “God is love” came to my mind. When you seek after love and affirmation, you are really seeking after God, your heavenly Father. When you are seeking after God, your heavenly Father, you are seeking after Love Himself. You can’t separate God from His love because He is ‘Love.”
A lot of people have grown up in what we have come to classify as ‘good’ homes, meaning they are morally good but not necessarily spiritually sound in the teachings of Jesus. At best, these homes are somewhat dysfunctional in many areas. The parents may have raised their children without affirming them. Without giving them the blessing, that is, speaking positively over their future. No parent is perfect. I’m a parent myself and I can assure you that I have made my share of mistakes in raising my daughter. But thank God, its never too late to learn where you missed it and with Holy Spirit’s help, correct
some of those mistakes. Amen!
In defense of parents, let me say this again, fathers and mothers can’t easily give to their children what hasn’t first been put into them when they were growing up They cannot teach their children what they haven’t learned themselves. This is no excuse by any means for parents, because by trial and error we can learn to do things better. We can learn to do things, such as raise our children, God’s way.
Can you withdraw money out of an empty bank account? We all know you can’t do this. To be able to withdraw from a bank checking account, you have to keep money in the account. You have to make regular deposits to cover any withdrawals you make. I said that to say this to grown children who are still struggling with forgiving their parents of past mistakes. You can’t continue to blame your parents for the rest of your life because they didn’t know how to give you what you needed as a child. The truth is, they probably had the same needs as a child that you did, but they grew up without consistent positive deposits being made into the account of their hearts.
As a grown up adult, it is now your responsibility to extend the loving act of forgiveness to your parents and be the kind of parent your child or children needs you to be, regardless of their age. Age, in this case, is not relevant. You won’t get things right all the time, no one does, but you can continue to learn and keep pressing forward to do things right the next time. The goal is to get things right more often than you get them wrong. Amen. This applies to every person, regardless of relationships and situations.
Men and women who grew up without being affirmed by loving parents, especially by daddy, looked to other people to affirm them when they left home. Many times they ended up being emotionally wounded by those who didn‘t have their best interest at heart. Sadly enough, things haven’t changed as much as it should in this area since I grew up. Men and women of all ages are still looking to be affirmed and accepted by daddy in every person they meet. But it is Abba Father you are looking for to affirm you. It is “Daddy.” It is “Papa” and He is right there, waiting to give you the affirmation you long for and to bind up your broken heart.
We are all on a journey with Jesus and He never promised that we wouldn’t experience hurts and disappointments along the way. He did and does promise that He will never leave us or forsake us in our time of need. He promises to be by our side every step of the way on this journey. Going through this process of healing is so that we can fulfill purpose for the good of others and for the advancing of the Kingdom of God in the earth. I’m still on this journey, as we all are, though we may be at different levels. Still, no one has arrived to perfection yet except Jesus.
Though I haven’t arrived to perfection, I can say that I’ve come a long way from where I was in the past. Praise God for that! I can say I have received much soul healing that has brought new levels of freedom to my life. I’m thankful that my spirit and soul has prospered because I no longer feel the sting of emotional pain over certain areas of my past. I no longer have that nawing feeling of shame inside that says something must be wrong with me. Praise God forevermore! That longing in my soul has been, and is continuing to be filled with my Father’s love and grace.
In Romans chapter eight, we’re told that God is for us and not against us. The devil wants to make you think that God is against you. That everything He does that makes you a little uncomfortable is because He is being mean to you. That maybe He’s having a bad day Himself and He’s just taking His grumpiness out on you, much like earthly fathers do sometimes with their children. Whatever revelation Father God brings to our lives, requiring that we let go of certain things, it is for our good and not for our harm.
It is not because He wants to make life as miserable for us as He can like the devil wants us to believe. Remember, “God is love,” and Love (God) can’t be motivated toward you by anything but ‘love.’ Even if correction comes to our life in some area, it never comes apart from His love and His desire to do us good. What does this say? It says that the devil is a liar!!
Let God’s love be an anchor in your soul and spirit because the truth is, NOTHING can separate you and me from the love of God. The devil is a thief as well as a liar and he’s going to try to steal everything from us that we allow him to steal. Did you know that the devil can’t steal everything? One day in prayer, during the time that Holy Spirit had begun my specific time of healing, I was being accused by the devil. It was over the fact that I still believed that God was mad at me because I had been so bad in the past.
Presently, I had failed to do something the Lord had told me to do. Feeling convicted, I went before the Lord, crying and feeling utterly awful. As I started to repent, the devil jumped in with both feet and told me that God was mad at me and therefore, He wasn’t hearing my prayers. This just broke my heart to think that my heavenly Father was mad at me so I stopped praying.
In the midst of my crying, the Lord called out to me and said, “I’m not mad at you. I love you. My love for you is not like a yo-yo, up one day and down the next, depending on how good you’ve been. No matter what you have done or what you do, it will never stop me from loving you. My love for you is constant and its something the devil can never take away from you, unless you allow him to.”
I stopped crying and grabbed hold of that truth real quick as the Lord’s words sank in. From that point until today (2011), the devil has never been able to deceive me with this kind of lying trash again. God doesn’t love you or me because we’re either good or bad. He just loves us period! (John 3:16). His love for us is not dependent upon our goodness, but on the goodness of God. Amen. It is good news that God is committed and nothing we can ever do will stop Him from loving us. This is awesome to think about! Praise God! The devil can NEVER take God’s love away from us, unless we allow him to through deception.
If you believe the lie that God is mad at you and wants nothing to do with you because He’s disappointed in you, instead of running TO Him, you will move away from Him in the wrong kind of fear. You will fear that He is an abusive Father, perhaps like a lot of earthly fathers, and if that is the case, you’re not going to put yourself in harms way, so to speak. There is the fear that if you do go to Father God, you might find out that the lie told to you is actually true. So, to protect yourself and your emotions, you back away from God and begin to withdraw. Isn’t this the way we react and interact with people close to us here on earth?
I just described the wrong kind of fear---fear that God, our heavenly Father will do us harm instead of good. This fear is of the devil, meant to separate and bring destruction. On the other hand, there is a right and correct kind of fear that we are to have toward God through the help of the Holy Spirit. We are to have a deep reverential fear (awe) toward God, whereby, we give Him the highest honor for who He is. To fear God is the beginning of wisdom says Proverbs 9:10. That is a good and positive thing, not something that is bad and negative.
It is imperative that you get it settled in your mind once and for all that he devil is a liar and there‘s NO truth in him! Jesus said, he‘s the father of all lies and the truth is NOT in him (I John 8:44). Amen. Jesus stated, plain as day when He said, I AM the way, the truth and the life (John 14:6). All truth is in Jesus, therefore, we have to choose whether to believe a lie of the devil, or believe Jesus, Who is absolute truth. And the truth is, we don’t have to fear anyone or anything because if God be for us, who can (dare) be against us?
Let me say again that nothing can separate us from the love of God. Not sufferings, physical afflictions, troubles, not threatenings or demons, or the devil himself. Nothing in all of creation can separate us from our Father’s love, which is manifested in and through Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen! The truth is, God loves you and me unconditionally, without reservations and without limits. Glory Hallelujah! That’s good news! It takes faith to believe that God loves you that unconditionally. It also takes faith to receive His love. It also takes faith to give love to Him in return and when it all comes together, there is peace and fullness of joy!
Spirit and Soul of a Child:
James 3:8-9, “But the human tongue can be tamed by no man. It is a restless (undisciplined, irreconcilable) evil, full of deadly POISON. With it we bless the Lord and Father, and with it, we curse men who were made in God’s likeness.”
How many parents today are aware of speaking death words over their children that contaminates their soul? Words such as, “You’re dumb and stupid.” “You can’t do anything right.” “You’re nothing but a troublesome burden and you always will be.” This is what James says is ‘evil speaking.’ It is spewing out deadly poison that doesn’t bring life and growth. It has just the opposite affect.
For example, imagine a field of beautiful red poppy flowers, basking in the sunshine, healthy and growing like crazy. Then one day, this crop-dusting airplane flies over the poppy field. It has just sprayed a nearby field. The pilot now wants to empty out the remaining pesticide he has. There is really no good reason, he just wants to. Making a pass over the land, he wants to make sure that he doesn’t release the pesticide over someone’s cattle and other livestock. For anything else, he could care less.
He dumps out the pesticide and goes back to the air-strip, thinking nothing more of what he had just done. Later, the man who owned the poppy field and who had taken great care of it, came to check on his flowers. He couldn’t believe what he was seeing. All of those beautiful red poppy’s had fallen over onto the ground---dead. The brightness and sparkle of their beauty had faded. Their once radiant faces turned upward and eager to greet the sunshine were now bowed over as if in shame. They had turned nearly black from the poison spewed out on them.
Children are like those tender red poppy’s. That is, if you don’t protect them with loving care, if you don’t keep sunshine and water flowing to keep them healthy and growing, they will wilt right before your eyes. The more harsh your words, the smaller they will shrink and draw up in self-protection. Your words are going down deep to wound their soul. If things are not made right at the time, they will push those wounds down deep so they can deal with it. They will carry the emotional pain right on into adulthood, whereby it will affect every close relationship they encounter. Of course, to spew out harsh and poisonous words to cause emotional wounding applies, not only to children, but to husbands and wives and to all other relationships.
Parents, don’t ever say, or even hint to your child that he or she is a worthless piece of trash that would be better thrown away. Children are God’s gift to you, that means, they don’t belong to you like a possession. They are a gift of human life from God, the Father, created in His image and likeness, just as you, the parents are. In His loving grace, He has seen fit to entrust YOU with that child’s care in every way---spiritually, morally, physically and emotionally.
Children have impressionable minds and they tend to believe what you tell them, whether its good or bad. In their innocence, they trust what you tell them to be the truth. For example, Jack, a six year old tells one of his friends that Mrs. Parsons is a bossy old woman who doesn’t know how to be a teacher. Word gets back to Mrs. Parsons and she confronts the boy, “Where did you hear this, Jack?” “From my daddy. He knows everything!” He firmly tells the teacher. “Your daddy is mistaken, Jack.” The little boy becomes upset and defends the parent, “No, he’s not! My daddy don’t lie!
A child’s faith in a parent can be so strong that they will remain faithful even when what he thought was truth has been revealed to be a lie. Why does he do this? Because its devastating to have to admit that your parent or parents are not truthful with you. It shakes your world and your confidence in them to tell you the truth next time. It breaks down trust and damages the parent-child relationship.
If a parent tells their child (or children) that they’re no good, that they’re worthless and they will never do anything worthwhile in life, they will process those words as truth. In the mind of that child, the message will come out like this---‘If mama and daddy says I’m no good, then it must be true. If I’m not a good person, then I must be a bad person.’ From that point on, his whole life will be affected by those hurtfully damaging death words. You just crop-dusted that child’s soul with the poisonous pesticide of your words.
Makes no difference if you try to right the wrong a week later because he will automatically recall to mind what had been said earlier. It may cause him to wonder, ‘If I’m such a good boy or girl, then why did mama and daddy tell me I’m not any good?” The child has heard two conflicting messages now and it brings confusion. You have to understand, that child doesn’t realize that his soul has been wounded and needs to be healed and set free.
He doesn’t fully realize that he’s carrying around that hurt as a weight to his soul. The main thing that is clear to him is that what was said by his parents caused him to feel bad inside and he doesn’t like it. If the pattern continues where the parents constantly poison his soul with harsh criticizing words, his spirit and soul will begin to gradually close for protection from them because this is the source of where the hurt came from. This holds true for all relationships.
Hold out your hand, palm side up and open. Imagine that this is your spirit and soul. Its open.
This is how we are as babies and small children. We are that trusting and open with a child’s faith.
Now, begin to slowly close your fingers over your palm, a little at a time.
This represents your spirit and soul closing in fear to another person, regardless of the kind of relationship it is.
Finally, close your fingers all the way over your palm, making a fist.The fist is a widely known sign of anger. There is fear, as well as hurt behind the anger.
A closed spirit and soul doesn’t believe good and kind words. A closed spirit and soul has problems receiving love or knowing how to give love in return. A closed spirit and soul is hurt and fearfully angry. If you noticed in the exercise, the hurt to the soul came first. Then, the fist was made signifying anger which covered over the hurt for protection. This is what I did for many years until the Lord took me into His heavenly operating room and began doing spiritual surgery on me, revealing the truth of His love and acceptance.
We were not created to be fearful. Fear came into the garden of Eden when Adam fell, riding sin piggy-back and we have been dragging it around behind us ever since. Remember that Jesus is the Prince of Peace. He is peace personified and He has given us His peace, His word, His anointing and His authority to run fear out of our lives tarred and feathered. Praise God, we don’t have to keep dragging that leech around unless we choose to, and who in their right mind wants to? Amen!
At some point in a person’s early life when they have encountered much emotional pain to their soul, they will decide to withdraw and go into a rabbit hole of hiding. You decide to keep everything about you, your personal affairs, your emotions, your thoughts, dreams and desires---all of it to yourself. Why? Because you have learned to trust no one but yourself. Sounds a little like the garden and the first couple who believed the lie that they could be their own God, doesn’t it?
Your decision will serve to lock everybody else out of your personal space, and serve to shut you in behind locked doors. It will be hard afterwards to open yourself and allow another person to get close to you, regardless of who it is. You will have decided that its much safer to keep everybody, family, friends, spouses, etc. at arms length and inter-act with them only on a surface level. Your actions is what I call, silent withdrawal. This is what I learned to do very early in life but thank God, He came and began changing all of that. Its an on-going process as we continue our journey with Jesus.