It has been 15 years, well almost, since the illness I suffered, since the doctors said I would not survive, but God said I would.
Most days I do well, others not so well. Some days I am absolutely sure why I am still alive, other days I feel lost, no one calls me, no one stops by to see me, no one e-mails me, no one takes time for me, or so it seems. God is like that, you think Heís not there, that he doesnít care about you, that Heís mad at you and has hidden Himself away from you, itís not true. When I was in the terrible depths of illness I also thought God had left me, turns out He never left me, He just stepped back as a loving parent would to see what I was going to do. He was teaching me to be content no matter what circumstances I was in and believe me it was not easy for me. I was ill, a life-threatening illness, a brain hemorrhage, a brain aneurysm found and coiled, Embolization Therapy, a craniotomy, depression, PTSD, nausea and vomiting every day for seven months, suicidal tendencies, vision problems, balance issues, headaches and more, but I learned to be content no matter what, I learned that even though I was very ill, I was home with my family and there was always something I could do, it was like starting all over again and I have risen to the challenge.
You can also rise to the challenges in your life, step forward, gather every ounce of courage you can find inside your self, seek God for strength and become determined to stand no matter what is happening around you.