This week I have had to face the immense hurt of 2 dear friends. The pain of facing those things in life that seem so unfair, so hard to comprehend. Moments when my heart cries out, why. And when I find myself saying over and over again, I don't understand God. Why them?
In the midst of it, I know that God has his hand upon the situation, but I still feel like I am walking blindly in the wind, following a voice and unsure of where I will end up. Everything in me wants to be able to say everything is going to be OK, but I don't know that is the truth.
The one truth I know is that God loves them more than I do. But at this moment I want to be able to say something. I search my heart for what God would say, and at this moment he just wants me to listen, to let them speak, to hold their hand, to cry with them, to comfort them, to just listen. How small and helpless that leaves me feeling.
I want to give them something that will make it all better. I want to know that it is all going to be OK.
The heaviness of my heart, wants a neat little story book ending. My God reminds me that there is a time to speak and a time to be quiet. There is a time to laugh and a time to cry and because of that I wait and I pray, knowing, trusting, leaning on the fact that I don't need to know or understand it all. That His ways are higher than my ways. That my loving God weeps with us in those moments and as I hug and hold hands, God is holding onto us.
And He will never let us go.
Psalm 119:50 This is my comfort in my affliction, For Your word has given me life.
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Lisa, there are times when the best thing we can do is just be there, for sometimes words fail us. Those are times when we lean on the Holy Spirit for guidance and to pray on our behalf. Those are difficult times, when we don't have all the answers, but it is comforting that we know the One who does. God bless you.