I came to the Lord in different stages. I grew up going to an Anglican Church, attending Sunday School and occasional services as a teenager with my family. At the age of 15 I decided I hadn't found God at church and stopped believing.
However a youth outreach came to my school when I was 16 in 1992. There was a call to come up the front if you wanted to give your life to Jesus. I did want to, but didn't feel comfortable doing it in front of everyone else, so that moment slipped by. Fast forward to my twenties - I got into the occult and still had a belief in God and Jesus, but I was living in darkness.
In May 1999 I was walking with friends on Te Mata Peak, a hilly reserve with lots of walking tracks. I knew I wanted to return to the car alone, so I told the others and I made my way back alone. I came to the top of a hill, I was surrounded by trees and I heard a voice say: "WILL YOU GIVE YOUR LIFE TO JESUS?" I said "yes" and was instantly enveloped in what can only be described as LOVE! It was a wonderful moment. I felt so happy.
Well despite that encounter with the Lord I remained in darkness, quite heavily involved with the occult. I used to do tarot readings, sťances, spells, used crystals and other objects.
However the Lord had not given up on me. In December 2004 I got angry at the Santa stuff that was all over the place and I acknowledged Christmas being about Christ and having nothing to do with the commercialness that was replacing the truth of the festival.
In May 2005 I rang my sister, a Christian, on a Saturday night and said "I want to go to church tomorrow". At the Assembly of God meeting the next day I re-committed my life to Jesus.
I prayed with the Pastor and a few other people up the front of the church, I will never forget it. I cried, the Lord had touched me right through the whole service.
I have regularly attended church since then. The Lord has brought me out of darkness into His Kingdom of Light. I stand today because His love has transformed my entire life. He has redeemed me, I am His. Praise the Lord!
This was the new beginning I needed, but I needed the Lord in every area of my life. I have struggled with depression and anxiety most of my adult life. Something inside stopped hoping and believing life could be any good years ago. On different occasions I was suicidal but never went through with it. I have had many times when my mental and emotional health was in shatters and I also experienced about two and half years of chronic fatigue.
On Sunday 11th October 2009 the Lord gave me words that have changed my life forever:
He reigns in the midst of my pain, He said to me: "Stand and be made whole, by My stripes I have conquered your soul. It's free from death and pain and fear, your body and mind are clear, free from anxiety, sickness and doubt. Let it all go, let out a shout to Me, the risen King, the Holy One."
Later that day I was reading a Smith Wigglesworth book of sermons. The piece I was reading that day was about healing miracles. I talked to the Lord and He gave me a vision. Jesus was on the water and I was in a small row boat behind Him. His feet had parted the waves so my little boat could follow in His path.
I exchanged depression for His life that day. I wrote these words during that moment: Jesus the Lord of my life. Jesus the love in me. A drop of water from Heaven gives life to my soul. He has paid for my healing completely. And then somehow I knew I knew that I didn't have to live with depression another day! I have not had any more depression since that day. Jesus did for me what no anti-depressant or doctor could do, He healed me completely and in an instant.
A lifetime of anxiety and worry has left me and I am so grateful to the Lord for healing me. I now have hope for the life I have in Him. I no longer worry about the present or the future, I can enjoy today.
Jesus said in John 10:10 "The thief does not come except to steal and to kill and to destroy. I have come that they may have life; and that they may have it more abundantly."
I give glory to Yahweh who has delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears and my feet from falling. I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW
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