It started out as a nice morning. I woke up feeling refreshed. The girls and I had breakfast.
We had a good class of Greek. Even though I felt like I did not fully understand the previous lesson, the class went well. And the rest of school went smoothly with all of the girls working hard. Laundry was done and the dishwasher was running.
A smooth day, with the daily tasks being taken care of. But I am sorry to say by the time lunch was over, I felt like the star of some B grade movie, “The Attack of The Crabby Monster”.
I am not sure when it fully took root, but take root it did.
When I banged my head on the kitchen island while changing the garbage bag, it resulted in me feeling a bit terse. But, no evil words escaped as I spoke through clenched teeth to my daughter that I could not talk to the person on the phone at that moment.
Nor did it fully take root as I found that a cat had vomited in my good shoes. However, I did curse the evil feline for doing it, I am sorry to say.
But, finding the microwave was not working because of a broken latch piece was definitely the last straw.
Having very smart children, they scattered to their rooms cleaning at an industrious rate. Not a bickering voice was heard, all was quiet.
Except for this seething crabby monster that was left behind, I was all alone and feeling all out of sorts.
I was totally discontent, upset with having more to do than I could get done.
In general just feeling unappreciative with my life.
Realizing that I don't normally feel this way, I started to wonder what was going on?
Talking to God about how I wasn't liking the way I was feeling, a tiny little thought came to light.
Women's Prayer Breakfast was coming up and I had planned on spending the afternoon getting ready for it.
I can sit here now and look at it with almost humorous reflection, in spite of the nasty ache in my head and neck.
But, when I reflect on how I handled these upsets and changes of my plans, I am full of remorse, both to my Lord and to my children for the way I handled it all.
For I always want to be a good witness of a godly woman to my children, and to glorify my Lord in all that I do. And I didn't do that.
After praying, apologizing to the Lord, and gathering my children together to apologize for my behavior, I start a fresh, with the crabby monster buried and with a joyful heart.
Psalm 32:5 I acknowledged my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the LORD; and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah.
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this really encouraged me this morning. I was feeling quite crabby and grumpy. It's amazing how quick we can go from one extreme to another in a matter of minutes. I tend to think about my finances and while I'm thinking on it, my son asks me a question, and before I know it, he's asking"Mom, why are you yelling?" Talk about an eye opener. Needed that laugh. I repent of this alot.