Falling in love with someone is one of the greatest things I have learned in this lifetime. Not that because I have been overwhelmed with same love, the same craziness I indulged in, not even because of same foolish things I did (for this is one sided),but because my heart and mind were opened of how much God loves me.
How much the Master sacrificed for His servant. A Father’s heart to His prodigal daughter.
Of how many times I felt broken hear-ted and hurt… all the while the heart of my Lover,the Lover of my soul, felt more than what I felt in every moment my eyes were set on someone else and not Him. How much He has given and how much he has done to pursue me and win me into His love.
Experiencing pain and anguish in one’s heart is a thing many view as one of the aching and stinging happenings in life. See what human love can do?
A love that is awakened not in its proper time? The sleepless nights of waning and crying on your knees of fighting the feelings and asking the Lord to mend the wounds and hasten the time of healing. The moments of holding your tears back and concealing them with a smile. When thoughts are consumed of why’s and what if’s. When little things brings sorrow to you. Of how bruised one could become.
This is a cry for everyone out there. Everyone that is in love. Whether you are being loved in return or not. Love God above all! Do not let your value as a person be dictated by how people see you, of what the media dictates as beautiful or not, precious or not, to be loved or not. Do not make these the eyes of how you see yourself as well. You are made far more than that. You are God’s beloved! In His sight your value is priceless. You are precious and loved. We can never find fullness of joy with men or woman. Only God can satisfy us. The cravings of our hearts are meant to be completed by God Himself.
The creation’s heart can only find its home in her/his Creator and other than Him, there is none.
And yes! He has great plans for you... a story only written for you...
one that no eyes have witnessed yet, no ears have heard, and no brilliant poet has thought of writing yet...Who else is able to write as such, but God who is the author of love?
This is not just about a man-woman love story...
marriage is optional after all...
but this is your love story with GOD!
You see, God has created everyone beautiful, only that human beings have biases.
Categories of being lovely and admirable are viewed as unto a physical sense
instead of the heart. And only the ones who have received such unconditional love from the Lord can understand that in their hearts as well.
And the only One that can give such flawless love, is the Lord Himself.
Our Creator puts value in the inner beauty that does not fade. He is not affected by how others see us or how we see ourselves specially when we let insecurities talk.
He loves us for who we are. It is He that crafted us and thus, accepts us without partiality.
This lesson is really yet worth the experience for me. Learning to love without expecting something in return could have not been made possible without this segment of a one sided love. As what a sister in the Lord told me it was an amazing thing that “in this, God has made me feel overwhelming joy and peace at the same time I am experiencing pain”. Though she had a different story than mine, yet, God enabled me as well to have a peace and joy that surpasses all understanding.
As I reminisce, the number of times I cried at night... the Lord reminds me that He has been there all the while embracing me close to His heart. Reminding me that after all of this, something more beautiful is coming my way. And yes, the most beautiful thing indeed... I have fallen in love with the Lord hard...
Head over heels.... it is He that caused this....not me... He stole my heart..
This was a wonderful experience. Because I got a glimpse of how God’s love works through my own eyes and heart. Feeling His heart beat towards me and how much He longs for me to be His. On top of it, I am unworthy, nothing to be proud of or
boast for that I have a character that could make
Him fall in love with me. Yet, because He is perfect, He loves me as me.
Amidst everything, the true love of the Lord saves us over and over again. Even if at times we fail Him, yet He remains faithful. It makes me cry now just the thought of being far away from the Lord. His perfect love is all that I need and yes,He is more than enough. God bless!